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2009-06-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

2009-04-08T23:17:00.000-07:00

NEW BLOG . RELINK PLEASE .

http://kathlynt-eo.blogspot.com

2009-03-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

I have lived more then once before though memory is askew.More a feeling then a thought yet I know always with you.You walk the edges of my mind, an appetizer for my dreams.Savoring just a taste of what flickers on memories screen.

"I am ready to love you again"

Feather touch of remembrance obscure to the naked eye. Wisp of soft blond hair or your essence as you glide by.Pages whisper as they turn in the history of my mind.Words etched in indelible ink " I'm waiting for our time"

"I am ready to love you again"

World turns and seasons change, I will live in your arms anew.Rainbow hair or eyes of blue I'll always know it's you.For a hundred years, maybe more I knew you inside out.I've swam naked in your thoughts dove deep into your doubts.

"Are you ready for me?"

2009-03-16T05:15:00.000-07:00

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched .
they must be felt with the heart .

-Helen Keller

Helen Keller(June 27 , 188o-June 1 , 1968) was an American author , political activist and lecturer . She was the first deafblind person to earn a Bachelor of Arts degree . Helen Adams Keller was born at an estate called Ivy Green in Tuscumbia,Alabama . She was not born blind and deaf, if it was not until she was nineteen month old that she contracted an illness describe by doctors as "an acute congestion of the stomach and the brain,"which could possibly have been scarlet fever or meningitis . The illness did not last for a particularly long time , but left her deaf and blind .Anne Sullivan arrived at Keller's house in March 1887, and immediately began to teach Helen to communicate by spelling words into her hand, beginning with d-o-l-l for the doll that she had brought Keller as a present. Keller's big breakthrough in communication came in April the same year, when she realized that the motions her teacher was making on the palm of her hand, while running cool water over her other hand, symbolized the idea of "water"; she then nearly exhausted Sullivan demanding the names of all the other familiar objects in her world . Sullivan taught her charge to speak using the Tadoma method of touching the lips and throat of others as they speak, combined with fingerspelling letters on the palm of the child's hand. Later Keller learned Braille and used it to read not only English but also French , German , Greek , and Latin . The story of Helen Keller .

So long never update le . I think this blog will be dead sooner or later . Anyway , Nick(ng) sorry for whad i did . i apologise . don't get confused . I swear that i was just playing . All i said was not the truth as i don't want you to get upset or something like that . but i think i did th wrong thing again . aw, sorry .

Another thing i want to say is th Meet The Parent session sucks totally . Mr. lawrence Tan was like pouring sand into mye wound and Mrs. Barnwell was cleaning it for mie . thank you mrs barnwell . Anyway , cher i'm fine . don't worry . My results sucks totally . all c5 or c6 and o1 fcuking F9 for mother tongue . Whad th hell , for th test , i told Mdm goh that i going for counselling for awhile , she said okay . thn when i came back , she didn't give mie extra time and failed mie . FCuk laas , damn f-ing angry . On saturday , mummy beat me up . Whad th hell . Go counselling also got wrong . hais , don't know whad th adults thinking siol .

♥ Baby , you in camp must take care ehs . don't make mie worry horx . drink more water and eat more . you now become skinnier le . hais , sadded bodoh . Before you book in , you told mie not to get into trouble , must be good girl . Today , i very guai guai ehs . I never run school lo . Th stupid lesson lasted for o6 hours with a few mins breaks in between . I going to bored to death le laas . My friends halfway run oud le thn ask mie run but i don't want ehs . just because of whad you say . When you book oud this friday and see this , you must reward mie horx . I don't want to lose you again . trust me , i'm true this time .

-Kathlyn♥

2009-03-06T05:04:00.000-08:00

I HATE SCHOOL .
Mrs. Wan called me see her during recess . she talked to mie for o1 and a half hour .
hais , don,t care laas . fcuk up laas .
promised mie to fetch mie home today but nv . even a freaking goodbye .

2009-02-27T04:07:00.000-08:00

ad toa payoh now ! not in th mood . A fcuking bangla scold mie for no fcuking reasons . he ask me go behind talk . fcuk laas . no ball sial . ask a girl wearing school uni and younger than him by don,t know how many years to go . nabei cheebye . got to go . bye .

2009-02-08T02:48:00.000-08:00

Nick wanted all this photo to be post but he has no comment on anything .

I lost mye red packets ! argh ! just found out about it today . don,t know whr th fcuking hell i left it . bad mood le still got ppl make mie angry . ask him got anything to say , he said no comments . bullshit . whad he does these days , he freaking said nth . as if this blog , i am th only owner . he got no reponsibility to update this blog . all mye fault , why believed him ad first . something like "i'll update everyday when i come back from HK" , all bullshit . I hated all these ! i want to go back to th days when i don,t even know you . he never even read whad i write nor how i feel . i'm just transparent to him . I want to go back to th days when i like edwind . ad least he makes mie feels happier . but time can't be rewind !

2009-01-16T19:36:00.000-08:00

hms , nth to post le . blog dying soon le .

mye new family , th zhuzhu family .
kathlyn-zhu mama
ivan-zhu laoda
james-zhu laoer
adam-zhu laosan

reply-ing of tags .

♥AhJess: relink :]
kath:relink le .

mystery: Hey, dun do all the negative thing to yourself. Love him doesnt means need to follow the same way.
kath:loving doesn't means need to follow th same way ? whad you mean ? and can you please put down your name ?

QingLingggg%: hellos (: Still rmb me? ;D . tagged(!), wil link u asap ;D
kath:hellos . of course rmb laas . thanks .

yongyan: hello...how r u?? meet up soon
kath:hellos . i'm fine . chinese new year o2nd day you free ?

2009-01-04T03:45:00.000-08:00

school reopen le . school sucks . can,t go anyway le . hais . on friday , met wilson after school ad 29oc . thn came ricky and zhi hao . half way through , they went singing ad csc . thn i wen to buy sth . play ad 291a thn clarence came to find mie and brought mie to his house . he splashed water on mye face as i gonggong de laas . thn quickly went back to 29oc . called ys and yy to find mie . they find mie for awhile thn went 283 dhr find bearbear they all . hais . found oud sth . not in th mood for quite long thn talked on th phone with ys and bear till cry siolx . fcuk laas . why everytime because of him i cry until like this ? i don,t want to cry anymore . mye heart doesn,t hurt anymore as it is dead . you're not mine anymore . you belong to another girl .

lastlong , is th word i want to say . byebye .

P.S. don't call me or sms me . phone confiscated by mum .

2008-12-31T08:28:00.000-08:00

One night a guy & a girl were
driving home from the movies.

The girl sensed there was
something wrong because of the painful
silence they shared between them.
The boy then asked pull over
because he wanted to talk.
He told her that his
feelings had changed & that it was time to move on
A silent tear slid down her cheek as she
slowly reached into her pocket & passed him a folded note
At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down
very same street.
She swerved right into the drivers seat,
killing the girl . Miraculously, the guy survived.
Remembering the note, he
pulled it out & read it , it said
"Without your love, I would die."

this story is whad i want to say to him .

2008-12-31T06:52:00.000-08:00

thanks yinsin for posting for mie . hais . today was a bad day ! went caltex , ad first was meeting ah soon daddy and du xin . in th end both also put mie aeroplane . thn met clarence . slackk for awhile thn went to his hse . then went for tuition . after tuition , went to minimart to buy cig with yuelun . thn SMOKE ad 291b for awhile . thn yinsin asked mie pei her . so asked her come minimart find mie . thn yinsin abit gong gong de . thn walked to maimai hse dhr de bus stop find bearbear . slapped yS a few times but she still gong . thn she slapped her self . laughs . found them le thn mye turn to gong laas . very giddy . thn ys smoke , took a puff . thn weijie saw it . OMG . thn kept denying about it . followed Nick go buy drinks . hais . like that only . thn sit dhr till i saw "mummy and daddy" . dhey say i anyhow run . i nv lo . thn saw jack laas . he taking th dragon . damn sad after awhile , ZT came . he and ys went back to his hse to change and left mie alone . hais . saw mye feifei finally ! yay! he so cute sial . playing th noisy noisy thingy . laughs . met new friend , gary(don,t know how to spell . sorry , bleahx !) thn went to take a cab . no money , borrowed from joanne . asked edward gor gor to flag cab for mie , in th end is sandra ! laughs . we keep running from this path way to th opp thn back again . still can,t get a cab . thn walked abit further in front with joanne , fangxin , sandra and edward gor gor . finally got a cab and took home . hais . he even a face to face byebye also don,t have . hais . saw esther , she was abit prettier thn th pic . maybe she is not photogenic . laughs . don,t know how to spell still want to put . reached home thn started blogging and talked to yongyan on th phone . smoke again but alone ad home . thn wilson sms-ed mie , maimai friend . don,t know who lai de .

2008-12-30T07:21:00.000-08:00

--YOYOYO~~
Booooo Hooooooooo~
guess who's this yo ?
hehhhhhhh~ i'm YINSIN :D
helping KATH to post her blog oh~~:D

-okayokay, today she cab to YONGYAN house .
than she came Taman, went up her gor gor house
to find him :D
slackkkk-ed awhile, felt abit hungry.
so we cabb-ed to batok near her tuition there
to eat eh.
after that CHERIE came pass YONGYAN her skirt
than she left.
walk-ed to staircase near her tuition area.
slackkkkkk at there and she SMOKE~
Gahhhhhhhh~ But not i teach one hor!
she SMOKEquite alot oh~
till her sisterrr saw manxzxz.
OMGGGGGG~
LOL!
--skipskip~
hehhhhhhhs .
went back staircase slackkkkk
till seven plus , she went homeeeeeee~~
Teeeeeees :D

-ending post here, nothing more to write about.
and ya, sorry for today. hope your sister
won't told your mum what you did.
or i'll be very guilty.
Teeeeeees :]
anything call me or message me oh~
-- Lots Of Love; YinSin ♥

anyway sorry, can't upload thoes photos.
got some error, :(
you try upload when you're free alright?
:)

2008-12-30T04:54:00.000-08:00

爱情让我失去理智.

世界的男孩都应该知道..
当你面前的女孩,
为你落下第一滴眼泪时..
她已经为你放弃了整个世界..

我为什么还爱你,为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃,是什么原因..
让你狠心把我丢在这里

请不要放开我的双手,
不要熄灭我的以后.
已经习惯你的双手,
牵着我的那种温柔.
请不要离开我.

想回到过去,
回到一开始,
回到你还爱着我的那天.

i worth so much more,

than you are treating me.

i love you without any reason but ,

i hate you for not loving me .

tell me whad to do

cause i don't know what i should do .

i am totally lost without you .

you're my sunshine,

i can't see without you !

no hopes means no disappointment

you've disappointed me but ,

i still love you so deeply .

i need you by my side .

i can,t find my way .

don,t leave me , please stay .

2008-12-28T19:32:00.000-08:00

ad maimai house now . got nth to do so update mye blog .anyway , changing new link soon . wash th past away , and start a new . having giddy . just woke up . maimai still sleeping .

28thdecember2008

around o1 plus went to eat mye lunch with mye "family" . lols . total 12 ppl laas . Mye jie , mye o2 mei , mye o2 younger bro , and o4 other kids plus o2 adults . all ate th same thing..Duck rice . laughs . i think th Char siew rice nicer than th duck rice laas . went home , mummy say we very mean . eat with other ppl's mummy but not her . all because of mye fcuking brother . he came down to spot check . slap him laas . then came his GF . was quite pretty and friendly . cooked th dinner . cut th stupid onion , make mie cry . then th garlic , th vege , th ginger and lastly th chillies . yesterday,s dinner was 丰富 laas . fish , caught by mye bro , prawns with egg and lots more . after that sing ad mye living room for awhile then played mahjiong ! laughs . damn fun . but nv play money leys . then stopped halfway just to do th fcuking tuition homework laas . aafter that , went into th room and was looking for ppl to chat with mie . firstly , called bearbear . he said he was not free cause he ad shakeshakeshake dhr . secondly , called Nick . he also ad shakeshakeshake dhr but different from bearbear de lo . thirdly , asked ah soon daddy to call mie , but he said his handphone bill bomb le . hais . fourthly , asked maimai to call mie . His phone prepaid low and he was oud . hais . then i called maimai house . lcky weijie is dhr. asked him to pei mie chat . called for awhile le then maimai mummy says she want to do sth so have to hang up . hais . sms-ed weijie and maimai . then weijie called . halfway through again mummy said phone bill 2oo plus then got to hang . but lucjy mie , maimai is back so he pei mie chat until i sleep .

2008-12-27T23:35:00.000-08:00

27th december 2008

went to california fitness to exercise . went to bathe then went sauna . slept inside for 2o mins ba . then shiok . ad first wanted to walk to take a bus home then walked past mye last time de drum calss . then went in to look for th class but can,t find le . then saw mye friend . he doesn,t seems to rmb mie . he saw mye mum then he recognise mie . hais . sad siol . then went to buy hoody and skinny . i got a mix black and white skinny . mye mum choose de . steady laas . then bought o2 hoody . hope for more . hahas . took bus home then sleep again . i like pig like that . nowadays keep sleeping laas . woke up and called bearbear . he said he will call mie back but never . hais . waited for his call till o3 plus laas . hais . called nick but nv ans then nv call back . hais . whad happen ? is it because i nv give in ? but if i gave in , i will regret ! i doesn,t want .

No Hopes=No Disappointment

i don,t want to get disappointed anymore . i had enough of this . so i don,t have any hope .

2008-12-27T22:49:00.000-08:00

25th december 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS . laughs , past so long le then say . woke up with Nick beside mie . damn hot siol . th fan no use de . blowing ad mie but still hot . laughs . bearbear change fan laas . laughs . went to bearbear room chat chat chat . then decide to watch movie cause mye jiejie say she watcing with her friends . then went to yinsin house to check for th movie ticket thingy . then went to JP to meet bear and nick . then no more ticket le . so walk walk awhile . quarrelled with celestene . just because i went oud and nv jio her . with friends she don,t know how to call . and if i said i went oud with bearbear , big problems will happen . hais . i doesn,t want it to happen . then mye mummy called . she scolded mie . crazy again . hais . once again mie and jie lied to mummy said that we went to countdown together and ton together . in th end , we went separate way . hahas . mummy asked jiejie to ans th phone but i said she was in th toilet . so called her to conference . then mummy ordered us to go home straight . JP dhr got pasar malam then nick and bear bought burgers . i don,t want to eat but nick say if i don,t eat he don,t buy too . but he hungry so i said i eating . while waiting i was forcing mye ear stud back into th ear hole which was about to close . OMG . damn pain laas . SWOLLEN ! took a cab , halfway withdraw-ed money and drop bearbear and yinsin off . then cab-ed home with nick . he drop mie off then went home . jiejie borrowed mye red skinny then went home together . mummy went insane and cane us . 13 strokes each . And, ban us from going oud again . hais .

26th december 2008

went to maimai house but lied to mummy again . don,t care le laas . then i did stupid things . don,t know why i went insane . most probably is because of him .

为什么我总是爱上一个错的人 ? 一个我不能爱的人 .

crying while hugging maimai to sleep . laughs . and i keep saying whad i shouldn,t say and whad i shouldn,t do . hais . went for tuition then sms-ed maimai about sth stupid again hahas . tuition end le then called mummy asked her whether can i go to mye granny,s house . then she say can,t . that crazy woman ! hais . then can,t got to maimai house . sianz . reached home use com . around 1o plus asked YS to call mie . then chat . i made bearbear angry and made him and his gf quarrel . just because of mye stupid f-ing idea i cause them to quarrel .

SORRY , SORRY AND SORRY . when i say sth o3 times , i really mean it .

talked on th phone with gorgor . he asked mie not to do stupid things . i think i am really hopeless le . anyway , thanks gorgor for being with mie . I LOVE YOU always as mye gor gor .

2008-12-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

24th december 2oo8

got countdown ! around o7 plus ad night waited for bearbear until o9 plus 1o then meet . ad first he called mie to meet his gf , yinsin , and her friend , yongyan , first . But i don,t want . met yikiat first . he knows magic , showed mie a few . damn fun laas . took a cab to taman met bear , nick , yinsin and gerrick . walked to don, tknow whr then took a cab to CDANs . drink drink drink , sing sing sing . YS and YY drunk . when people countdown-ing , i was in th toilet with yS . mye finger is in her mouth with vomit . yucks . laughs . took a cab to bearbear house . order mac then sleep .

2008-12-23T04:58:00.000-08:00

如果悲伤是可以称量的，那我现在的心情该是有多重呢？
触“事”生情。原来悲伤是成长的一个理由。

站在向日葵上，即使失败也面对阳光

相信是一件很困难的事情，
尤其当一个人被骗无数次后。
感觉身边很多人难发自内心去相信一个人，
因为太多期待，也太多伤害。

有人說暴風雨過後,
將會是寧靜天空
也有人說暴風雨過後
迎接的是下一個的暴風雨
兩種不同心態的人
說出來的話
下一刻迎接的將會是什麽
就要看自己所面對的心態問題
很多時候
讓自己太過堅強
太過自信
把自己做的太成功
這時候
只要輕輕的一擊
就會很輕易的倒下
所以要明白
不止要站的高
還要站的穩
人生就應該這樣成熟。

2008-12-21T03:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ANGMINGXIONG

(BEARBEAR)

gorgor , big enough le ma ? i am th fifth and th last to send you your bday msg laas . happy ma ? And , mine is 6 pages of msg and 5 pages lo . hope you had great fun ad sentosa .ILOVEYOU AND IMISSYOU ALWAYS. goodluck and jiayou in everything you do . gor gor , thanks for letting mie know you and counting sheeps for mie . your counting sheeps skills is much much more better and greater than weijie laas . And , you treat mie better than him . He always bully mie lo . hahas .

yesterday went to work as usual . After work , went to BaoRu laopo,s house . she scare mie with her stupid hamster ! went home after that to take a nap . work up around o7 plus o8 . lied to mummy say mie and jie going weiming party in th end went to edwind,s house . Before that , met annabelle and her friend, melissa , bought a converse tee for bear then went to th arcade . After awhile , went to mac to drink ice milo . laughs , we were competing who drinks faster . then went to 283 to find bearbear and friends . slack until 12.ooam went 279 to find edwind,s mummy and daddy . then went home with them . edwind gorgor and gf were ad home . but went oud 15 to 2o mins later . damn sianz . never even talk . stupid bearbear went to bed le . that idiot lied to mie . STUPID BOY !! played with gerrick for awhile then went to th sofa to take a nap . after o5 mins , mye phone rang . it was my mother. nearly scare mie to death . gerrick brought mie down to take a cab home . then daddy asked him to copy down th cab number . laughs . he gave th "whad th hell" look . reached block downstairs waited for jiejie . that idiot bought a EVERLAST shoe , so damn ugly but got brand ! laughs . went home , can,t open th door . mummy locked it , woke her up and kena scolding . fcuk laas . did tell her we will be going home late . then she like siao like that knock her head and don,t know whr on th table . hais , got crazy mummy also got crazy daughter . laughs . then , WENT TO BED ! send a goodnight msg to bearbear !

2008-12-19T07:09:00.000-08:00

爱是不惜一切的奉献.

我为了爱情奉上了我的一切.到最后，

我得到了什么？

为什么等我爱上了你，你已不爱我了？

2008-12-19T06:23:00.000-08:00

I didn't wish for you to go,
i wish we were that close & was together once again.

No words can describe this feeling,
it's not what i wanted.

I tried all ways to stop thinking of you,
but it don't seems to work like i thought it would.

I Was So Stupid To Believe YOU!

2008-12-19T05:33:00.000-08:00

mye happyness doesn,t last ! its only temporary .

finally , i updated . just because someone change or maybe mie . or even everyone !

i won,t ever believe

"A Promise Is A Promise .

A Promise Is Not Meant To Be Broken"

All th Promises you made , you never keep it .

i can,t believe anyone now .

dear boy , you should know who are you .

no one is dhr for mie to lean on .

no one is dhr when i need someone .

someone had replaced mye place in your heart .

i had no where to stay or even to stand .

th way you speak to mie had changed .

th tone had change , th attitude and everything !

kath

i shan,t say so much about it now . i don,t know whether i love you but i know i need you . you said you love mie but now , do you ? you said you love mie , can i believe ? whad had done to make mie lose confidence in you ? i really want to believe that you love mie but i can,t . everything you did is carved in mye heart including your name .

2008-12-11T03:21:00.000-08:00

1odecemeber2oo8

went for tuition as usual . Never call them and sms . met new friend ruobing . ask her to help mie put tatto . yay ! hahas . going to have o1 soon . hms , whad shld i put ? KATH ? i love you or life sucks ? around o7 met daddy ad WM,s arcade . shopped with ruobing and duxin for awhile . looked ad him play for awhile then went to BK . On th way , saw auntie , shu lin and uncle , they going to buy phone . so good . wait for th person who is paying money to daddy . then he ate . After that , we went back to th arcade again . ask him catch bearbear for mie but it seems so difficult . so we rushed to swensen . th stupid ice cream is so sweet . ad first daddy and i said share but he didn,t eat . hais . in th end , i can,t breathe properly . uncle send us to blk 29oc , fetch jackson . walked to take a cab . before that , saw weixian daddy , clarence and claudius ahgong . they were playing cards . took a cab home . met jie ad o8 floor . she was with jiefu . jiefu fcuk laas . talked to him , damn GL laas . after he go , daddy said he erected . hahas . don,t know how to control , don,t wear boxer , wear underwear . laughs . went home then talked to daddy on th phone till 12 plus , then mummy came home . so can,t talked . so sorry laopa ! lied on th bed and talked on th phone for awhile then went to bed .

11december2oo8

went for tuition . wanted to return bearbear,s mp4 to him but nv . today,s tuition sucks . mye head was like exploding but still need to think . around o6 plus called daddy to ask him whether can i meet them . he asked mie to passed th mp4 to celestene and asked her helped mie pass to them . i was like whad th hell , as she doesn,t know them . Actually , th fact is i want to see them . laughs . sorry daddy . asked him to accompany mie go to pass th mp4 to them . he said i will talk to them . hais , sad . went home with ruobing , duxin and yue lun . reached home called daddy and started posting . that,s th end of today . byebye .

2008-12-09T19:54:00.000-08:00

o9december2oo8

tht bitch not in Singapore then still got tuition . fcuk her laas . need to do her compre , damn damn damn sianz laas . And , cried and screamed like hell . Ad first , he said he will busy until monday but he not free . hais . damn sad . th whole day not even a sms or a miss call . hais . damn sad . around o7 plus , ah soon daddy came to find mie . walked with him and jie to o1 head to fetch fetch akash home .transfered money to celestene and took a cab home . waited for jie jie ad th playground under mye block . chatted with daddy . i need to change alot of things , such as thinking , attitude and know mye limits . And , chose betwwen bearbear group and daddy,s group . A very difficult decision . Below is a few sentence i want to say . hope they see it .

dear bearbear , nick and friends ,
____________Sorry that i didn,t chose this group because i don,t know you that well . we can be friends but not so close nowadays . so sorry . i only can say goodbye now . takecares . I will miss you guys . th way you guys treat mie and th times we are tgh , i will rmb it and store it in o1 part of mye heart . good luck in everything you do .

kathlyn______

dear edwind ,

________I hope you still want mie to be your meimei . although I can,t contact you guys , i hope that you will always remember mie . And, rmb th times we had together . store it in o1 part of your heart , who knows , maybe o1 day , we will as close as we were in th past . boy , takecare of yourself , mummy , daddy and gorgor . Don,t play around le . It,s time for you and mie to grow up !

kathlyn______

dear mummy and daddy ,

____________I knows that maybe you won,t get to see this . But , i still want to write to you guys . I maybe looking for you next year or maybe not . As next year is o'levels , i will be studying damn hard . just to get a cert and continue with mye studies . Who knows , th next time i am meeting you guys will be tomorrow or th day after on th streets . take good care of yourself ! goodbye .

kathlyn______

2008-12-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

hais , haven,t been talking to him for long . hais . so damn sianz and sad . he seems frustrated and tiired . all i can help is to leave him alone . nothing other than leaving him alone . i miss him damn lots . he knows that . i want to see him but can,t . its okay . lets talk about mye o3 days o2 nights .

Lied to mye mummy said that i was going to th chalet with jie . but instead i went to celestene,s house . on Saturday morning , went to eat with mye family then make a new bank account . then eat again , ate jap food .
was quite sick than mummy ask mie to take a nap . around o5 i woke up , then she doesn,t let mie oud till o6 . met celestene ad timah . guozheng too . ate mac with them . he changed alot . after that , went to west mall to buy cake for yuhang .ad first GZ was coming with us then he broke his promise . hais . so sad . took 178 to cels house , change then went to jurong street 42 de temple . we were opp th temple making "I LOVE YOU" with candles . it was damn difficult laas . TH WIND DAMN STRONG . we lit th candles then it went off . lucky we success for once . took a pic of it . so damn nice . as YH can,t come oud , we went in . th uncles dhr very fcuk de . I HATE THEM . after that took a cab back to cel,s hse . watch th show 27 dresses and mirrors . was quite nice .

In th morning called bearbear then met a new friend , named sWEI . then we started smsing . slept in th morning , around o7 plus , o8 . woke up ad 12.30 . so damn tired . waited for cel,s to wake up . and i t was like o3 going to o4 . then bathe and ate . went to bugie de OG to look for jeans with her family . OMG , levi,s . damn ex . broke le , can,t buy . only can see . hais . went to eat . I was damn full laas . then went back to cel,s house . around 1o plus , we went down to take a lot of photos . then met sWEI and his friends ad lakeside pri de bus stops . was quite worried then mye bearbear came . YAY ! he brought us to th park . then waited for ah soon daddy to come . he still look th same and as short as th last time i saw him . hahas . I MISSED daddy and bearbear alot . i was so happy to meet them laas . after awhile bearbear and friends went back . left mie , daddy and cels . we were talking . then daddy said dhat i was blacklisted . hais . so sad . idk why laas . i think until mye head going to break le . hais . around o3 plus , it started to rain . was damn cold . walked back to cel,s condo and sat dhr talking . around o5 plus , i was so damn tired . slapped on daddy,s lap for awhile then started playing . i was kicked by him , twice . it was damn pain . he looks like he is just swinging his leg , but it was damn damn damn f-ing pain . around o6 plus , still raining , walked daddy to take a cab then went back cel,s house to sleep . finally , can sleep .

woke up a few times per hour . hais , don,t know why . l felt damn sick and i think caught a cold . jie called , cels woke up . bathe and went home . cel,s daddy fetched . thank you celestene and family . i had great fun . I LOVE YOU GUYS ! reached home ad o7 . mummy went berserk . abit siao de . scold mie like fcuk like that . don,t care laas . then went to bed . talked to sWEI then he helped mie count sheeps . hais . so long no one count sheeps for mie . i still rmb bearbear , edwind , edward gor gor and nick,s first time of counting sheeps is for mie . YAY! thanks sWEI . so poor thing . not enough sleep . hais . i am so guilty . got to go . byebye .

2008-12-04T20:54:00.000-08:00

i don,t know whad th hell happen between us .
NOT FREE , NOT FREE and, NOT FREE is all he told mie !
whad th hell . Is talking to mie a very fcuking difficult task ? i really wants to know laas . can,t we just have a nice talk . just for o5 minutes and i will be damn happy . i am damn confused right now . don,t know whad to do ! don,t know whad th hell i did wrong and don,t know whad i said wrong ! just think that th gap between us is getting bigger and bigger . like i said "you are beside mie right now and i doesn,t feel anything ." . if you are standing beside mie right now , i will say that dhr is a distance betwwen us . i don,t know how to describe these and i doesn,t want to . if you really cares about mie , you will now whad i mean . mye life now seems so meaningless . all mye mind is thinking about whad happen between us . And , as for bearbear , th gap between us is also getting bigger and bigger . said that he would call mie awhile later , but did he ? th ans is NO ! for th whole week , i had been waiting waititng for calls . Not a single one from anyone of them . Did they think of how would i feel ? other than sad , i feel very lonely and neglected . But do they even care ? sms or call mie when they are free . hahas , whad a joke . they are not free all th time . hais . is this a mistake i made ? being fcuking irritatting . i don,t want to change and i never will . cause i am who i am . i won,t change unless i wanted to . FROM NOW ON , I AM NOT GOING TO BELIEVE ANYONE EXCEPT MYSELF as there is no one oud from nowhere for mie to believe . everyone in th world lie to mie . I HATED THAT BUT I GOT NO CHOICE . they made a decision to lie to mie not mie . all i want is just a good talk and nothing else . is that very difficult ? does it kills if you talk to mie ? does it do any harm ? Knowing you and bearbear is my greatest happiness .

i wonder if anyone would notice if i leave this world .

th world now is meaningless and colourless.

there is no reason for me to continue living on this world .

if leaving this world , makes you and bear happy , i will .

to you , maybe its nothing .

but to me , its life and death .

have you ever wonder why i feels this way ?

a o5 mins talk to me will make me fly up th sky .

but you choose not to .

since its like this , then i think there is nothing for mie to worry about .

dear friends ,
____________continue with your life happily . do not call me , i mean if you wants . cause i am not going to answer or maybe even switch mye phone off for months . cause i am really confused . i don,t know whad to do . all i want is peace . i know th best way to solve things is to face it . But i choose to avoid it because it hurts . i don,t want to get hurt anymore . dying solves mye problems and i will rest-in-peace . cause no one will notice th missing me . thanks alot for even reading mye blog . this makes mie very happy but its too late . my happiness is gone forever and its not going to come back . just because thay are not free .
ILOVEYOU , don,t doubt it . Cause its going to be mye last sentence to you guys .
kathlyn

2008-12-03T19:41:00.000-08:00

will be replying tags only .

♥ PRISCILLA™: Daddy, youre linked. Link me (:
kath:you are linked

ahgirloves: linkedXD,link miie toos.
kath:linked

lonewolf 1.4: nice blog
kath:thank you

2008-12-03T04:19:00.000-08:00

i am very bored now . so doing a stupid quiz . copied from friendster .

1. Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
-yes

2. What color shirt are you wearing?
-black

3. Do you have a reason to smile right now?
-no

4. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first?
-idk

5. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
-Nick

6. Who was driving the last car you were in?
-my uncle,s

7. Who was the last person that texted you?
-Nick

8. What are you craving right now?
-sleep

9. What if you married the last person you kissed?
-if he really loves me

10. What are you excited about?
-nothing

11.Ever kissed your number 1 on Friendster?
-No

12. When was the last time you cried? And why?
-1st december . quarrelled with him

13. Ever kissed someone who's name starts with an A?
-No

14. What are you currently listening to?
-Cause i believe

15. Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
-yes

16. Last person you hugged?
-Nick

17. What were you doing at 2:00 am?
-sleeping

18. Have you cried today?
-No

19. What did you do today?
-have fcuking tuition

20. What bed did you sleep in last night?
-mye own bed

21. Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
-Not really

22. Ever talked to someone that was high?
-i think so

23. Does it snow where you live?
-No

24. When is the next time you will see your grandma?
-how i know

25. Have you kissed or hugged someone today?
-No

26. Are you a dumb blonde?
-don,t understand

27. Will you be married in the next two years?
-of course not , underage

28. Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldn't have?
-yes

29. Are you in a relationship, single, complicated or engaged?
-single

30. How have you felt today?
-sleepy

31. Do you like your name?
-of course

32. Are you happy at the moment?
-no

33. What were you doing at 10:00pm last night?
-singing and drinking

34. Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents)?
-mye uncle

35. Have you ever been kissed in a closet?
-No , want to try

36. Do you live alone?
-no

37. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
-yes , quite alot

38. Are you crazy?
-absolutely yes

39. Who was the last person to call you babe?
-no one and never will

40. Last thing you drank?
-wintermelon

41. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
-yes

42. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
-idk

43. What was the last car you sat in?
-Not sure

44. Last person you quarrelled with?
-Nick

45. Ever sat somewhere which made you uncomfortable?
-yes but forgot already

hais , so damn sianz now . got nothing to do and nothing to say . isn,t feeling well today and no mood . hais . went for tuition and came back . called wrong person . wanted to call bearbear , in th end , called Nick . he was so fierce then i hanged his phone without saying byebye . sorry , sorry and sorry . when i say something o3 times , i mean it . reached home then started using th com .

如果刚才我真的忍不住，你也不会说那些话了．

你有没有想过当时你想说这些话有没有考虑到我的感受？

我只不过想和他见面难道不行吗？

2008-12-02T20:41:00.000-08:00

will be posting about yesterday . ad first deardear coming to mye house but mye gor , an idiot, took MC and came back home . i was damn fed up but no choice . jiejie asked mie go big bookshop to buy something so i ask dear to meet mie ad 317 bus stop . met around 1.3o then jie told mie that i don,t have to buy le . took a cab to 283 to accompany deardear eat his lunch . hais . then walked to 29oc . it was around o2 plus , slack ad th staircase until o3 plus . deardear went to th shake shake shake dhr . after tuition , went to aljunied . ad first was going to fetch alyssa . but mummy asked whether mye jie and i wants to sing . so we agreed , took a bus 100 to golden mile complex . drank 2 and a half bottles of corono . and sang a lot of songs . damn happy . took a last bus home . when i reached home , bath then called bearbear . chatted for awhile then hanged . was waiting for deardear,s call until i fell asleep . sorry dear .

nasir: ur blog quite cool ah....plain and simple

kath:thanks .

Joey<3:>

kath:thank you . takecare too .

ZT: ah nick ah. bo update?? hahas!

kath:will ask Nick to reply you asap !

为什么我爱上一个人，那个人都对我没感情了 ?

要我爱上你很容易，要我忘了你很难 .

我爱你 , 你知道吗 ?

我爱你 , 你明白吗 ?

translating it into english .

why when i love a person , that person will forget me ?

to make me love a person is easy but to make me forget is difficult .

i love you , do you know that ?

i love you , do you understand ?

2008-12-01T03:41:00.001-08:00

he is beside mie right now . And, i doesn,t feels anything . don,t know whad to say le .

2008-12-01T03:35:00.000-08:00

hais . now in mummy,s house . with deardear ,mummy , daddy and jie . he beside mie now but don,t know whad to post . hais . A promise is a promise . A promise is not meant to be broken . hais . i used to it le . people lying to mie without blinking their eyes . hais . heartbreak laas .

why when i love someone , the person will treat mie as nobody ?

Am i just a substitute for your ex ?

Do you even care if i dies ?

I love you as who you are , don,t change because of anyone .

Do you understand whad am i trying to say ?

Or you are just ignoring me ?

2008-11-30T19:47:00.000-08:00

bear: nick say everyday update in the end nv update sian
bear: this blog die liao la!!
kath:he not free ma ! don,t sian . if sianz , can call mie chat !
kath:haven,t laas . if everyday post , i will go crazy one day .

♥ZITING.: Stomach still paiin paiin uhs euu.?? (Worryin'.) ]x
kath:not pain le . don,t worry . IMY !

roxxi: better take care of urself better ah~ been busy busy busy~ Must go out together some time okay?
kath:must see when i am free lo . Nowadays , got a lot of prob laas . going crazy soon .

♥ZITING.: G0rt stead j0r, uhs.? Hahhs. ;D IMY too.
kath:he not mye stead . is good friend .

joell: linked you (((:
kath:thanks .

JUDITH: hees okay;D nice to mit you too;D
kath:hahas .

nasir: sure or nt???can believe ah??
nasir: dun lie ah..i knw all lah....hahahx
kath:must believe laas .
kath:i never lie .

THis blOG iS Not dEAd !

It is just because Nick and I not free to post . so didn,t post nowadays . Will try to post everyday .
on saturday , it is mye Grandpa's bday . went to Westmall ad 12 to meet claudius to lend him money . Dear don,t agree with mie to lend him but i lend . so sorry dear . After that , went to grandparent's house to eat . but ate quite little as i have no appetite . went to take a short nap . bath then went to th restuarant to eat . th food dhr was quite okay . As dhr was too many dishes , we can,t finish th crabs . two plates full of crabs , wasted . then cut cake , ice-cream cake again . So damn SWEET , eat until i want to vomit . went to mye cousin,s house to take her clothing then went back to mye grandparent,s house to saty overnight . talk on th phone with bearbear until o2 plus . he counted sheeps for mie to sleep . Around o2.3o , mye bro called mie to ask mie about th hotshot thingy . Whad Th Hell . called bearbear again to count sheeps for mie . went back to sleep . And again , mye bro called . but went back to sleep again , BY MYSELF ! hahas . around o5 plus dear called mie . he just reach home . poor thing . he sure LOS de laas .

i woke up o2 times per hour don,t know for whad . until 11.45 , woke up , bathe then ate . don,t know is breakfast or lunch . hahas . maybe both . called dear for awhile then mye uncle want to use th phone . he scolded 'fcuk' , th way he said was so funny . hahas . lols . Ad first , i was going to CF with mye mother . but she was going to another clinic to help so i was to go alone . in th end , i nv go because i had forgotten to bring mye lock . went home , was thinking of whad to buy for edward gor . hais . headache . called yuelun to accompany mie to buy psp ! it was damn ex . i was LOC ! ahHh . sorry gor . so i bought him a red Nintendo DS . don,t know whether he liked it anot hais . but he looked quite disappointed . hais . then called mummy to tell her . hahas . went to 283 to meet Nick then went 285 to celebrate . after awhile , Nick and i went to 283 coffeeshop to wait for bearbear . victor came down first then a batch came down . hais wait until 9 plus , bearbear still havent come . went to gorgor house . i think they got a prob . Bearbear was so fierce and , so scary . Around 1o plus , joanne sat beside mie to talk to mie . awhile later , i asked edward gor why edwind disown mie . hais . so he asked joanne to help mie asked . then she said it was because i was with Nick . then she went to ask . And , th ans is he said he wanted to disown mie then ask mie for stead . Do you think that i will believe ? Of course , it,s a No laas . for so long , he never said anything to mie or even show mie . suddenly he say this , of course i won,t believe laas . took a cab home with Nick . then waited for his call . i think after around half an hour , i fell alseep . so sorry .

ANd , i think i need to clarrify something .

NicK and KATHlyn aRe juST GOod FRIENDs .

Not MOre thAN thAT foR NOW !

i think , thats all for today .

2008-11-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

Didn,t post ytd because i came back late ! ad first , I was going to th airport to fetch Nick back . Bearbear and friends changed th venue to Redhill . In th end , we never even meet him . hais . so damn disappointed . Wanted to give dear a surprise , in th end . aHHh! don,t say le laas . say no also no use le . hais . lets talk about today . woke up ad 1o plus ( i think) , called bearbear and dear . None of them answer mye phone . Until Nick called mie . Ytd night , they agreed to meet ad o1 ad clementi interchange . hais , but bear was late . Met Nick first , exchanged gifts . I bought him a neckless . He said he doesn,t wear a neckless . but he put it on . thank you . He gave mie couple cups . I am still thinking of who to give th cup to . Just Kidding . I alrdy thought of one . but , its not th time to give yet ! Took a cab to batok to meet bearbear . Sat dhr , half th reason is to accompany them . Another half is to wait for aunty to buy grocery with her . After buying , Nick and Bear said they got things to do . So i went back to 29oc with aunty . Nick said that he will come to find mie for sure . But i said " 我听就好了" . hahas . sorry . They did come . but for awhile only . then took a cab to toa payoh . thought i am late . In th end , i was early for half an hour . hias . 16 bucks flew . will continue tomorrow . byebye .

2008-11-28T06:59:00.000-08:00

dear niCK

我考虑了很久..
不是因为我不爱你,
是因为我怕将来会伤到你..
有点复杂,
不知道该真么对你说..
只觉得自己不适合谈恋爱..

kathlyn_______

do you understand ?

2008-11-26T06:09:00.000-08:00

Dear Nick ,
___________today fourth day le . YAY , you tomorrow coming back . I am so happy . but.. i can,t fetch him back tomorrow . so sorry . don,t be sad okay ? i want to buy something for you but don,t know whad to buy . hais . Please tell mie . I really want to know . To you , i maybe important . but to mie , you and bear will be damn important . Cause you two are mye good friends . thanks for your lolli-s . I had forgotten to eat them . Will eat o8 tomorrow de .

爱会让人一直受伤.可当得到真爱时，

一切都是甜美的，是快乐的..

也许我不配拥有这甜美，这快乐..

我只希望我能远远地看着你，守护你，暗暗为你打气

当你在哭泣时，我会分担你的痛苦和眼泪..

然后默默地离开..

当你须要一个人谈天时，我会当你最好的朋友，分享你的喜悦..

dear , i know you don,t understand . i will translate for you in english !

Love will make a person hurt alot . When love comes ,

everything will be so sweet and so happy .

Perhaps I do not match to have this happiness .

All I hoped is to look at you from far, to protect you,

And to support you secretly .

When you need someone to be by your side , I'll always be there for you .

I'll always lend my pair of listening ears to you .

Now , do you understand ?

kathlyn__

Anyway , today got nth happen . As usual ,went to 29oc . But today , i never even finish a single hw . hais . damn sianz . Having gastric pain , then feel like vomiting . hais .

2008-11-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

Dear Nick ,
___________Today , third day le . IMY damn lot ! you in HK must enjoy laas . don,t just because you miss us then enjoy . If not , waste money lo . hais , you friday got lion dance . i think you got no time to accompany mie le . hais , so dad . i think i will not be fetching you on thursday le . As your friends will be fetching you , if i go , i will just be an extra ! You and your friends enjoy yourself ba . reach Singapore le must call mie horx . don,t keep buying things for us . should buy more for yourself , a souvenir for example . And , to remind yourself about th trip !

因为爱，让我变成现在的我。

i have changed , not because of you .

but , because of love.

kathlyn___

today was whole lot worse then ytd . damn damn damn bored . did o2 paper cuttings today ! YAY , just have to do two tmr and i finish with it . then i can relax after that . still waiting for dear,s msg . then i can call him for awhile . bear today whole day never sms mie . hais . sad lo . say will call mie back . till now , not even a msg ! hais bearbear don,t want mie le . hais .

reply tags !

♥ZITING.: Update. ;D

kath:finally you come to tag mie . IMY .

weijie: u die liao ar

kath:will ask Nick to reply your tag asap .

hongxiang: welcome!!!!

kath: =D

elsa: HiHi.. NIce to meet u!

kath:hellos . Are you a friend of Nick ?

♥ PRISCILLA™: Hello Daddy (:

kath:will ask Nick to reply you asap !

JUDITH: hello nicknick,helo nicknick fren;DDD

kath:hellos . mye name is kath . Nice to meet you .

2008-11-24T08:05:00.000-08:00

Macau METROPARk HOTEL SUX!!!!!!!
stupid computer got stupid time mins de
Sian Dear you sleep than cannot chat with you sadd......
IsoOo...Missss...YOu...Sia
First day till now i didn't really enjoy myself.... cause i misses you guys at singapore.......
SobbSobb......
Brothers You all sure enjoy yourself without me hor haha i miss you all sia.. haha
WEIJIE i come back i sure wack you DE!! LOL!! wait for me.....
I wish is that i can see you guys come fetch me back ya........
list for the things that i bought....
1 couple cups....
one minnie soft toy....
one winnie....
one dorenmon...
2 wines....
snacks for AHPEK DE....
dontknow still can buy what leh....
SIan now left 7mins & 33 secs....
and dear and bear is sleeping now haha
oh ya guys you all can call my if you all rich...
haha
but my phone now no batt till tomorrow night than can call...
haha
anyway....
i misses you guys lot.....
DearDear i superdopermissyou
takecare lots....
Swmuacks
Huggies
loveya

2008-11-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

Nick , IMY . today second day le . second day le . talked on th phone for awhile with him . so happy . then watch tv for awhile . someone called but asked mie go 29oc to put make up for jackson . whad th hell . she made a mistake and asked mie to cover up for her . damn pissed . reached dhr , put make up for him and started mye hw . total have five and i just finished o1 . OMG , today really cannot make it . asked bearbear to come 29oc to find mie . damn sianz .he broke th stupid bed . find ways to fix it but it doesn,t help . then bear found something to tie it . mye hand hurt so much . hais . bearbear went off . mye head began to think of something confusing . fixed th bed with aunty . hand hurts . then johnny daddy called . i told him whad i am thinking about . he just said its normal . hais . bearbear called mie , told him i am confused . then Nick asked bear to call him . talked on th phone for awhile . yay . so happy . he hanged and bear went to bed . he sounds tired . poor thing .

replying tags !

anna=D: Hey!! erm tagging you LOL!! Miss You, Love You !! Sisters forever.!!
kath:lols . IMY , ILY . yay !

nasir: aisey man.....gt boy sia...i dunno ah
kath:no laas . he mye good friend only .

SHahIERR.: fine. relink me lah.www.storyofateenager.blogspot.com
kath:relink-ed .

Xinyi:Will relink soon. You and the Nick together? O_O
kath:thanks . no laas . he mye good friend only .

szeqin: linked!
kath:thank you .

yuexii: heys u are link-ed:D tagg-ed too:D
kath:thankyou .

ZT: linked! hahaha
kath:thankyou .

Bear: three elephant
Bear: two elephan
Bear: One Elephant!!!
kath:thanks bear . thanks for counting and thanks for making mie hyper !

hongxiang: linked.
kath:thankyou .

roxxi: rELINK LE~ cheer up ya? other than this.. what else can i do? Sigh.. Maybe u should let ur kor calm down first? then maybe ask again sometime again ba~
kath:thanks girl . but i don,t understand why ! why he is he doing this to mie ?

Amanda Ching ♥: relinked:D
kath:thankyou !

dear Nick ,
this is for you . must post everyday when you come back from HK okay . takecare . bearbear did talked to mie on th phone . don,t worry . IMY laas . ate o2 lolli-s today . th lolli-s you gave . thanks . your keychain , i hanged it on mye phone alrdy . as for th puzzle ball , i brought it oud with mie everywhr i went . but..but , i left it ad 29oc today . sorry uhs. ! will be more careful and will rmb to bring it home with mie .

爱是不惜一切奉献

to love someone is pain

but , don't because of pain

and , don,t love .

kathlyn

2008-11-23T08:37:00.000-08:00

Nick , today is your first day in HK . must takecare . never sleep th whole night . went to th airpost to see him off . took a cab from aljunied . bear and friends didn,t get to see him off as they came abit later . Nick gave mie 1o lolli-s and a puzzle ball . in it is a keychain with his name . i was so stupid until i don,t know how to open it . was talking to Nick on th phone then told him that im going to take a hammer to hammer it open . hahas . but i didn,t . met bear and friends ad T3 . followed bearbear around like idiots . as i was very tired , i walked so damn slowly . but bear so good , he always wait for mie . sometimes walked with mie . went to T1 to see planes and drink grassjelly drink . hahas . alot of indians dhr . OMG ! took a cab back to aljunied as i was very tired . when i reach , gor and jiefu was sleeping . mummy and jiejie ad cofffee shop eating breakfast . met them and came home together . then slept until o5 plus . hais . bearbear so kelian , never get to sleep . sorry uhs. ! all mye fault . ask you accompany mie go airport to see Nick off . but you never get to see him . so sorry . went back to batok , just to accompany mye maid to th market . hais , reach home about o9 plus . sms-ed Nick , he replied . but when i see th msg , it was too late . he went bed le . will cor him tmr morning when i wake up ! its only th first day and i miss Nick like siao le ! how am i going to take it for th next few days ? still got no news from edwind . he disown-ed mie ytd , but i don,t know whad is th fcuking reason . i really want to know ! can,t figure it oud . i don,t know whad i did wrong . hais . hope he will tell mie soon as i am going insane about it !

2008-11-22T13:20:00.000-08:00

Kathlyn...
This few days i will not be in Singapore.. You must TAKECARE leh...
If you tried you can call him to count sheep de...
ANY CAN CALL HIM KKZ...
I PROMISE that after i come back to Singapore i will post everynight de...
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2008-11-22T05:31:00.000-08:00

went swimming with doreen jiejie and jiefu . went dhr ad around o3 plus . went to edmund,s condo to swim , its ad simei . reach dhr , it started to rain . i wanted to get sick so continue to swim until got lightning and thunder then stop . hais , th weather spoil mye day . went to bathe then went to yishun . went to th night market dhr and went to shop shop . hais , damn sianz . nick went to th wedding dinner . i thought he would need ad least o2 hours to prepare . but in th end , he only used 15 mins . don,t know how he did it . took a few pics with jie and jiefu then came home . that edwind disown mie , i don,t know whad is th reason as he doesn,t want to tell mie . OMG , i don,t know whad to do and whad to say . i think i ad least need a reason to accept it . o3 years of kinship , just ended without a reason . if you were in mye shoe , will you accept it ?

replying tags now .

HUIYING: woooooh. Become so chio le until that day i couldn't recognise you! Haha.
kath:i whr got chio . you can,t recognise mie because of th stupid looking uni lo . hahas .

BEAR™: hahax!!my pic so cute lol
kath:who take de ? th photographer sure very good de . hahas .

♥ZITING.: 你最近有点怪怪噢~ 为什么会突然拿掉他的照照哇?
kath:会很怪啊?

Jasmine: wah you everytime change link. lol. relinked!
kath:sorry uhs. ! sharing blog so change th link .

b.k: eeyer...nid re-link ar...hish..hao ba..wn im free i relink asap
kath:i don,t care . you better relink asap !b

♥AMANDA: Hellos . Re-linkked TakeCares[:
kath:hellos . thankyou . takecare too .

aku-alex: link done =D
aku-alex: Handsome la so many your face wakaka Takecare going oversea !
kath:will ask nick to reply your tags asap !

yunwen: linked!!
kath:thanks .

dinah: girl, you very luo suo. make me do that pic for 3 hours -.-v you good. xD
kath:sorry laas . this concern my life . so sorry . and thanks .

xiin: haha! so fast link me le ar? LOLs. MISSYOU la! so long nv see dao u le. haha
kath:will ask nick to reply your tag asap .

hanquan: my name oso spell wrong!!!!!!!!! is hanquan lahhx
kath:sorry . i don,t know about it .

Xiangyu: Kathhhhh . Link me ~ Hope you remember me horr (:
kath:Xiangyu , link-ed . i will of course remember you laas .

Glenda: Relinked
kath:thankyou .

not in th mood to put pics in . will do that tmr .

EDWIND LIM AND KATHLYN TEO WILL ALWAYS BE GOR AND MEI !

2008-11-21T03:44:00.000-08:00

我会把这一切忘得一干二净!

once i made this decision . i will live with it . it is a promise i made with myself . a promise is not meant to be broken . this is sentence to said by nick to mie . going to upload photo le . th few pics i took ytd , with nick and bearbear de . but first , i replying tags .

SHahIERR.: sorrryy. aniways life hasnt been quite the same. really. tings seems to turn around laaah. haha. theres noting more for me to say anywaysss.. seriously. my mind blank. EMPTY. jus empty
SHahIERR.: Okok. ill retag
SHahIERR.:TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
SHahIERR.: HERE I GO
SHahIERR.: so i give you
SHahIERR.: you want your tag very long right
me:ya . i want .
me:thanks .
me:you are lame !
me:okay , thanks .
me:its okay .empty then go find something to fill it .

name™LaLaS†浩子爷™: ( wal sian where got our pic sia haha tell you le dont write chinese i cant read haha takecare lots ya
me:i say maybe only ma . but chinese looks more sentimental ma . i explain to you lo .

ZITING.: 超想你啦，GIRLFRENN~
me:我也很想你耶!

™LaLaS†浩子爷™: his name is bearbear , if you found him , bring him back to mie ! i want to be friends with him again .now , lets talk about mye work ! first day of work , went to edwind gor,s hse to wake him up
™LaLaS†浩子爷™: TAG!
™LaLaS†浩子爷™: LaLaS heres to TAGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!
me:thanks for th tag but this is lame .
me:thanks again .
me:don,t copy paste laas . i want long long de but that doesn,t means you have to copy and paste

bear: byebye
bear: tc
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: SAD
bear: byes
bear: hi
bear: bye
bear: helo
me:hellos
me:byebye
me:hellos
me:byebye
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy
me:be happy

me:take care too

me:byebye

ZITING.: Nahh..ur taqqie. HAHHS.! ;D Girlfrenn, iimy loads uhs. (;
me:girlfriend , IMY too .

b.k: hees, thnx fer doin th quiz wor.. haas
me:welcome

ZITING.: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
euu uhs.!!!!!! x3
ZITING.: Taqq euu~! GIRLFRENN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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me:thanks for th tag !

th pics we we took ytd .
mie and nick .

nick______________________________________bear

bear and mie !

th three of us . left to right (bear , mie , nick )

bear and nick , i did mye best le . this laptop 的software sucks . cannot do this and that . i edit until i crazy 了啦!anyway , thanks for being dhr when i need you . that night , thank god , i meet nick . they taught mie alot of things . they counsel-ed mie for quite long . hahas . must read this horx , bear and nick !

they are so good . friends for ever !

p.s 我会把这一切忘得一干二净!
因为我知道我们不会有结果的!

2008-11-20T08:13:00.000-08:00

i just met a new friend today ! his name is nick loh , 17 this year . Nick accompany mie chat th whole night ! he is so good ! (big enough?) . talk on th phone about alot of things . went to mac with them and jackson . jackson vomitted . nick felt like vomitting as bear kept repeating th vomitting sound ! hahas . cute siol . then took a cab to 29oc .lied to mummy say buy stationeries but in th end , i go to edwind gor,s hse ! i thought he very sick , in th end , he still can say about ziting ! from now onwards , i am going to forget everything . i am really very tired . tired of waiting , tired of everything !我决定放弃我对你的爱情.因为我很累了!

2008-11-18T18:01:00.000-08:00

th quiz below is boonkeat ask mie do de . so idiotic laas . i did it because i got nothing to do . th quiz damn damn bo liao uhs !

1. The person who tagged you is:
-boonkeat

2.Your relationship with him/her:
-my friend

3.Your five impression of him/her:
-crazy and nothing else

4.The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
-not yet done

5.If he/she become my lover?
-he never will cause he is shorter than mie ! no offence uhs .

6.The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
-not yet said .

7.If he/she becomes my lover, he/she has to improved on?
-nothing .cause he is short .

8.If she become your enemy?
-he wouldn,t ve my enemy !

9.What is it you want to tell her?
-last long with th one you love .

10.Overall impression Good?:
-good

11.How do you think the people around you feel about you:
idk ehs .

12.The character you love most about yourself?:
i am hyper and, crazy .

13.Pass this quiz to 10 person:-
1 :edwind gor
2 : edward gor
3 : ziting girlfriend
4 : edward gor
5 : ziting girlfriend
6 : edwind gor
7 : edwind gor
8 : edward gor
9 : edwind gor
10 : ziting girlfriend

14.Who is number 6 having relationsion with?
-with ziting girlfriend sooner or later .

15.Is number 9 a female or male?
-a male

16.If number 7 and 10 together, good?
-of course good lo . if they are together , gor will be happy .

17.When was the last time you talk to number 3?
-yesterday lo .

18.What is number 2 studying about?
-idk ehs .

19.Does number 1 has siblings?
-o1 gor and o1 jie .

20.Does 5 and 9 get along ?
-should be quite good .

21.Talk about number 2:
-cute , good looking , fierce but caring , lovely and, alot more .

22.Are you best friend with number 5?
-yes although we just know each other .

23.What is number 10 doing ?
-idk ehs . should be sms-ing uhs .

2008-11-16T21:21:00.000-08:00

worked for o3 days so never post for so long ! i lost a friend . hais , i am so stubborn . it is just a lie and i am so idiotic . th real absurd is mie . i shouldn't be so angry about that lie . hais , his name is bearbear , if you found him , bring him back to mie ! i want to be friends with him again .

now , lets talk about mye work ! first day of work , went to edwind gor,s hse to wake him up . hais , he only slept for o1 hr so sure damn tired de . no matter how i wake him up , he just won,t wake up . until edward gor said two sentence , then he jumped down from his double decker bed . hahas . edward gor so 厉害 . took a cab to suntec . hais , damn ex $21 plus . heart break . but it is better than being late for th first day of work . th uniform is so damn ugly ! is like cook,s type of shirt , need to wear apron and th stupid ugly cap ! first time work , don,t know whad to say and don,t know whad to do . hahas . ogr so cute , he dance and play around . hahas . then lunch time came , walk for so long just to eat th KFC . i didn,t eat , he ate . took alot of photos , will post next time ! walked back and started working . hais . damn tired . stand from morning till night . he asked mie to take a few girls number . one of them is ziting . she looks very cute . same age as mie .

th second day , hais , edwind gor not coming . he said he got lion dance . then serene jie jie suddenly say she need someone to reply th other jiejie . then ad first i was trying to find edward gor but no one answered th phone so , too bad . then doreen jie found yingying to help . she came but she was too shy to shout like mie ! i was selling th japanese curry rice . the two big box of rice was sold oud , buy mie and serene jiejie . we were so happy that day . then nvr eat anything again . i gave attitude to doreen for no reaon . ad night , weisheng said " you are treating him better than doreen jiejie " . i think for whole day and still didn,t realise it . i thought i was just doing fine in mye relationships . then went home with johnny , th chef . he became mye godpa le . we talked and we drank . then we took a cab home . was sms-ing ziting and she asked if we wants to meet ad mrt station tmr and i said yes . then i lie on th bed but can,t sleep . mummy confiscated mye phone till th next morning . hais .

th thrid and th last day , woke up ad o6.3o , took a bathe then go edwind gor,s house . i told him that we are meeting ziting ad th mrt station and he is so hyper . bearbear was ad his house sleeping . wanted to talk to him but don,t have th courage to do so . hais , i am an ABSURD ! gor took o2 cig from bear . then asked victor to say o1 stick . but he woke up . i wonder if he saw mie . took mrt to cityhall , halfway through , ziting sms-ed mie and said that she will be late so we went to th convention hall first . last day of work , took alot of pictures again . hahas . ad first , i sold th rice burgers and spaghetti . when th person came to work , i changed back to selling th curry rice . th business ad first was quite bad . but in th end , th two big box was sold oud again . edwind gor asked mie to take number agian . hais , i have to take , i can,t reject . then ad 7 plus , mie and gor went to buy candy floss . damn big . edwind gor say i look like a child when i was eating th candy floss . walked around th hall . then went back to work . was so tired so sit near th cashier , eat snake . hahas . i made gorgor angry . i was so stupid of doing dhat . hais . he doesn,t want to talk to mie . but after quite long , i took his favourite food , sotong sticks . then i don,t know when he forgive mie . hahas . wrote mye email to ken . he said he wanted to send mie th photos i took . yeah ! then end work le , packed up everything and got mye pay ! then took a group photo . then went home with edwind gor . in th mrt , gor slept . he looked very tired . don,t feel like waking him up . but i have to . then he accidentally knock his head on th side . but was still sleepy . hais , so hurt to see him like dhis . we walked to mye house . then waited ad th void deck as mye jie jie was going back to batok . he was sleepy so soundly until mye jie came down . woke him up but he was so frustrated . then i walked them to a place to take a cab home . hais . he is so tired . gor reat well . don,t be too hard on yourself . walked home alone , was so scared . ad some place , i can,t see . all i could do was to base on mye feelings to get home . hais . mummy woke up to talked to mie . hais , asked mie to read story book and do homework again . whad th hell . just came back from work and she started nagging . if you were in mye shoes , you will be damn fcuking frustrated .

i will always be around you , no matter what happens .
just turn your head around and you can see me .
i am always at a place where you can't see me , but i can see you .

2008-11-12T05:41:00.000-08:00

replying tags !

Doreen: hi
Doreen: so boring...
me:hellos
me:ya lo . very boring !

kelly: excuse me.your edward korkor still alive.who say cannot see?
me:i never say cannot see . i say cannot talk and edward gor gor,s tag cannot see .

b.k: tag le la
me:don,t want to tag don,t tag laas . tag until so bu shuang !

bear: ytd help u count sheeps see i so good leix
bear: hahax!!tc
me:ya laas , very good laas . very good laas . help mie count sheeps nia .edward gor gor better , he help mie
count sheeps , monkeys and hamsters ! take care too .

passerby: Hey , you like edwind right ? anyway , lastlong [:
me:may i know who are you ? this is my privacy , so i won,t be telling you . and lastlong ? hms , you shouldn,t
be saying this to mie as i am not with anyone .

b.k: diaos la..call me idiot..hmph ! i not posting ma
me:diao ehs . whad are you trying to say ? i don,t understand !

bear: so small only haix hahax
me:th biggest le laas . and , i hate you !

2008-11-11T08:16:00.000-08:00

mingxiong bear bear is so good , he helped mie count sheeps .

bear , big enough le ma ? today got nothing to say .

我发誓我对你的爱永远不会改变! 你终究不属于我 .
突然好想你你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈 ?
i hope one day you will hold my hand and be my guide .
就算你给我全世界最严密的防守 , 我也会想办找出你的破绽 , 突破你抄截你然后超越你 , 因为喜欢你 .

2008-11-09T19:25:00.000-08:00

hais . so long nv update le ! went for 2e2 'o7 bbq . ad first , i should go with our class ad 12.30 than in th morning , celestene called mie . she asked mie to go with her abit later . as she is mye good friend , she say please , mye heart soft liao . she said meet ad 1 ad clementi and i said okay . in th end , i waited for o1 and a half hr then she come . i went crazy le . ad 2.15 met celestene , yuhang and his friend , 'fabian' . don,t know how to spell :P . sorry . before that , i called edward gor gor . i asked him whether he is free ad night and asked him to fetch mie home . he said if he is ad home then he will fetch mie home . hais . went to bedok to change bus to east coast park ! so damn far . should have come with th bus . hais .went dhr , saw aloy , sillah , wenxin and felix first . then ate ad mac . sillah came back with a twin bike . so we cycled to th bbq pit . from mac till th pit is about a 1o mins walk . i was worried about celestene and th others so cycled bike and aloy blade with mie back to mac to look for them . when we reach mac , cels and friends had alrdy reached . hais , sorry aloy for making you accompany mie to mac . sorry . cels and friends including mie went to sea to play . after that , we start th fire . there are two pits , i went to th other side to start th fire . it was starting well . then when cels and friends helped to start th fire ad th other side , all th 2e2 came to mye side . so i went back to help them . i just started mye fire then yuhang fan it . whad th hell , very difficult to start leys . was so damn sad and angry . hahas . then saw heather sitting alone so went to chat with her . chat halfway , aloy brought two hotdogs for us . thankyou aloy . after that , sat on th beach with celestene to chat . long time never chat le so was quite happy inside . then th sky turned dark . i can,t see , then sherlyn asked mie to take butter from th other . all i can do is to walk straight and use mye hand to touch whad is in front of mie . as i was too slow , cels came to help mie . she brought but nvr bring mi back . halfway , met aloy , so he brought mie back . thankyou once more . asked him to th carpet and lie own . trying very hard to see in th dark but still can, thais . can,t even see mye own hand . chatted with aloy , then went to walk ad th shallower part of th sea . then , edward gor called mie , he said that he is fetching th girl he likes home so can,t send miehome . and, edwind gor said that he will be helping his girlfreind to do something and i was to go back alone . hais , i was so damn sad and was not in th mood le . then went to th big big rock . i was quite difficult to climb up and go down as all i could see was black . after that , mie , cels and friends went to th "funfair" . yuhang caught o4 small bear bear . one doraemon , one elmo , one cookie monster and o1 hello kitty . then went to play , wanted to win a bear home but can,t . then play pirate ship . as "fabian" was scared of height and th stupid thing can,t be "locked " , he got off and left mie alone . then he asked th person to stop and we change seat . then start , i screamed so loud and everyone looked ad us . they think that it was embarrass but i think that if we screamed , it will be more fun . then walked back as fast as we could to th bbq pit to catch th bus . when i reached bukit batok , i called gor again . he said he is free but if he fetch mie home , he don,t know how to come back . asked him take cab , he no money . cels and friends took a bus home so i was left alone . not in th mood cum can,t see , so wanted to walk to west mall to relieve stress . halfway through , edwind gor, mum , mye godma saw mie . she came to ask mie to take a cab home , but i don,t want . as i don,t feel like going home so early . then i scared that edwind gor will scold mie so when he came , i ran . then i stopped as i can,t breathe , then edwind gor came , he asked mie to take a cab from dhr home but i insist to walk to west mall . then he looked quite angry and said that if i don,t go home now , i shall not talk to him for life . then i sat on th floor as i really can,t take it le . mye hse dhr so black , no like then i very scared . hais . so asked mingxiong to accompany mie chat . i lied to gor and mum said i reached home le , but i am still finding mye way home , dhr is a flight of stairs and i tripped dhr . hais , got a blueblack . anyway , thankyou mingxiong for keeping it a secret . reached home ad about 12.35 . then went to bath , but bathe slowly , until 1.10 . then sms mingxiong . then did mye hw . until 05 plus , i was still not in th mood , then called gor gor , i was wondering why he nv call mie . then he said he just reached home . as edward gor gor to count sheeps for mie . but th more he counts , th more i can,t sleep . he counted hamsters , sheeps and monkeys . hahas . he counted " 87 hamster , 88 hamster , 89 hamster and 60 hamster ." hahas . so funny . count wrongly . i became hyper so intended not to sleep . wait until o7.3o in th morning then start to do mye hw again . fcuk , damn lot laas . opps , sorry , i scold a vulgar . feeling sleepy now . will update tonight again .

2008-11-07T03:47:00.000-08:00

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals, a Lion, a Chimpanzee, a Giraffe, and a Squirrel, who pass by. They decide to compete to see who is the fastest to get a banana off the tree. Who do you guess will win? Your answer will reflect your personality. So think carefully . . .. Try and answer within 30 seconds 'ctrl' + 'A'

If your answer is: Lion = you're dull. Chimpanzee = you're a moron. Giraffe = you're a complete idiot. Squirrel = you're just hopelessly stupid. A CO

i am just being very lame . And, just bored . today got nth to post ! th same old routine ! tuition , tuition and tuition . damn sianz . slept for only o4 hours but still being quite hyper . bearbear asked mie to go bbq . but i want gorgor go then go . i mean MAYBE can go . hais . can,t go for campus superstar le . saturday got things on and sunday got bbq for our class . hais , so sad . miss this chance . hais . got nth to do leys !!

2008-11-06T09:27:00.000-08:00

today don,t have much thing to say ! th same old routine , study , study and study . last night , make friends with victor and bearbear . gorgors' friends . th bearbear is quite good , altough i just now him for a few hours , he actually helped mie count sheeps to make mie go to bed . coughing really badly . hais , don,t feel like going to th doctor . slept ad 4.3o and woke up ad 7.3o . only sleep for o3 hours , but i am still hyper . don,t know why . after having mye tuition today , went to gorgors' hse . was having fever but didn,t tell anyone as i don,t want anyone to worry for mie , if have any . coughing doesn,t stops . whad am i going to do ? go to th doctor or just stay ad home and waitfor th time to die . quite a number of ppl were dhr . went with duxin . i am quite guilty afterall . asked her to accompany awhile but in th end , she back alone . sorry . should i go for edward gor's bday party or should i just pass him his present and go ? he asked mie to go for his party but , i don,t know his friends . all i know is edwind gor , edward gor , mummy and daddy . hais . whad a difficult decision i need to make . i think , i am going to die soon . mye time is up , and , i have to go . i am having serious cough , headache and fever . OMG , whad am i suppose to do . going to mye godbro's wedding dinner on sat . and , i still haven,t think of whad to wear . dress or skinny ? i need someone to make a suggestion . okay , i am just being too confused to continue with mye post . i am going bathe and go to mye room . wait for ppl to call mie and help mie count sheeps . if he is th one counting sheeps for mie , i will be th world,s happiest lady !

PS . th dinner , only mie and mye "father" going . mye sis says she doesn,t want and so do ye mum . mye bro can,t go as he doesn,t know anyone ! hais .

2008-11-06T09:03:00.000-08:00

hais , damn sianz ! time to reply tags .

x3xia0b3nDan: mei mei don say i nv tag u hor haha ya la i must study hard wad so i can pass haha umm btw my bday u must cm ok ^^

me:i go for awhile only . ad most give you your present le , then go liao .

kelly: tag...asshole...
kelly: tis is for me to tag...and i m the one who tag...so i can tag whatever i wan.. stupid gal ask me not to tag asshole...
kelly: you ask her go?den sure say go out wid jiejie de..
kelly: come on...dun be sad.. you should know the b*tch well...wat she know best is to lie..tagtagtag!
me:i am not an asshole .
me:stop calling mie an asshole . i hate to be insulted like that . And , i am not stupid ! i am UNREASONABLE !
me:don,t anyhow talk to mye gor gor horx .
me:ask her fcuk off la . she think she whad , da xaio jie ? i still qian jing leys !

♥AMANDA: Hellos . you have been linkk-ed ,, link me too . thanks takecares (:
me:hellos . you are link-ed . welcome . takecares too .

freida: nahh my new link
me:you are linked.

kelly: tag tag tag..you really an asshole... beside me ask me tag. not only tag,ask me to read le den tag.i still haven read,den wan his KOR tag to be above mine so ask me tag first don read.
me:of course ask you tag first la . that time asked you tag o1 then you tag so many . then edward gor gor tag cannot see le .

annoymous: hello tag liao la
me:hellos . i know you are kevin . don,t want tag don,t tag laas . tag until like i force you de .

bernice: Why all chinese words?
me:all chinese because more touching .

b.k: eeyer...ur blog song sumhow same as mine de...blehs !!!
me:this songs you sing de ah ? can,t put mehs ?

bernice: I've linked you.
me:thanks .

Victor...xP: lolls harlos....
Victor...xP: BleahhsxP
me:hellos . nice knowing you .

vickson.........: hihi..=]
me:hellos .

b.k: yea....blehs....hehes
me:whatever .

xinyi :OMG! CHINESE BLOG! I cannot read. me:why can,t read chinese ?

janelle.`: screw chinese! hahahhahahaha. kidding. it scared me. janelle.`: when you wanna meet ?

me:hahas . meet for whad ? And meet when i have th time !

BearBear: helo:)

me:hellos .

2008-11-04T05:54:00.001-08:00

mye blog suddenly become a chinese blog . hahas . i think i am going crazy because of loving someone so deeply . but he is not mine and won,t become mind . i am just wasting mye time on him . but if i give up , i will regret but if i don,t i , i will get insane . whad should i do ? i really can,t think of a solution . is this called love , or should it be called dependent on him ? i really don,t know .
when i see him , my heart pounds so damn fast .
when i see him, my face will go red when i see him .
when i see him , i will get hurt .
when he is hurt , i will be hurt more deeply .
when he talks about other girls , i will get frustrated for no fcuking reasons .
when he neglected me , i am afraid of losing this friend .
to him , i am nothing . but to mie , he is a person i can,t live without . i really want him to know about all this . but i can,t .he belongs to someone else . i can,t probably snatched . even if snatched , i will still be th one to be hurt . i won,t know whad to do if he is not with mie .
whad will i do if , he leaves me ?
whad should i do , if he leaves me ?
whad can i do , if he leaves me ?
or maybe , he doesn,t even care about mie .
is this love or being dependent on him ?
someone , tell mie please . i really am crazy about him . i am going insane if i carry on loving him . it is very tiring . damn tiring . i am tired . i want someone to be beside mie .

2008-11-04T05:48:00.000-08:00

生命诚可贵，爱情价更高

闲暇时翻开几本杂志，篇篇都是死去活来的爱恨情仇。也许女人真的是为感情而活的动物，再理性、再成熟的女人一旦陷入感情，便会失去理智。裴多菲一首为呼唤自由而写的名诗，经过许多痴情人的使用之后，只剩了前面两句：“生命诚可贵，爱情价更高。”痴情，已经演变成了一种怪病。　　痴情这种病也如其它病一样，病来如山倒，病去如抽丝。爱情来到时，没有人会追究其原因。任何的逻辑推理与科学公式都不适用于爱情，爱的魔力使得无数人常常“明知不能为而为之”。然而，爱情逝去后，刨根问底、穷追不舍或者日省百遍、沉沦自虐几乎成了一种通病。尤其是失爱的女人，心里都有十万个为什么，诸如“他为什么不爱我了”之类。这些为什么让女人们在爱的独角戏里沉迷、沉沦直至沉没。　　我们每个人都曾有过生病的经历。当你在病中时，虚弱的身体、憔悴的面容、痛苦的表情会让爱你的亲人们充满怜惜并尽心照顾。但是，你会因为眷恋这种怜惜和照顾而愿意留在病中吗？同样，我们也都有过大病初愈的感受。那时候，亲人脸上欣慰的笑容比医院外的阳光还灿烂。为了这笑容，谁不愿意早点康复呢？　　但是，这一切逻辑对于病在痴情中的女人却不适用。她们总是希望用自己的怨和恨来触动一颗已经不属于自己的心。何其难也！且不说这样做是多么的无望，既便那颗心还有一点你的位置，难道他的痛苦会比他的快乐更让你高兴和满足吗？很欣赏张晓风的一句话：“无论何时，我最爱的，都是你的笑。”真爱，莫过如此。台湾著名时事评论员、节目主持人，被李敖称为“台湾最聪明的女人”的陈文茜说过这样的话：“我不一定有能力与别人长久相爱，但我很有能力和别人分手，不论是我负人还是人负我。”她让我叹服。　　治疗痴情，必须学会忘却。谁也无法抹去生命的烙印，但我们可以选择忘却伤害记住美好。清理人生路上丛生的杂草，留下鲜花和绿树，那么，无论何时回首，你看到的都是美丽和阳光。“爱情只是生命的中的插曲，不是生命的唯一，更不是生命的全部。生命，永远高于爱情。”这是一位社会学家的名言。　　是的，痴情是在亏待生命。生命，永远高于爱情。　　什么是痴情？梁山泊和祝英台？或者罗蜜欧和朱丽叶？其实都不是，他们那叫专情。专情和痴情的区别在于——专情是两情相悦者的同甘共苦共沐爱河，不管他们能否终成眷属；而痴情大多数情况下指单恋，不管明暗，也就是说，完全是自作多情。　　痴情是以“痴”为前提的“情”，本身就带有贬义。痴呆或者傻冒，为了自己心目中所谓的爱情，固执地吊死在一颗树上，呆呆地守候一辈子，有刻舟求剑之嫌。有过上吊经验的人都知道，当绳子卡住脖子的时候，会两眼翻白，视线模糊。在一颗树上吊死的人就是这样，从上吊的那一刻起，就再也看不到眼前的其他爱情。而紧拽的那份爱情只不过是回忆里的一场骗局，确实爱过，只不过在它产生之后，就夭折了，像一个死胎一样停留在那里。即便是有一天能如愿地拾起，也会发现，原来是死的。　　痴情是一种病，但是它很容易被外人吹捧成某种意志或者信念。也许是很多人都会有同情弱者和失败者的心态，对痴情者容易带有某种认可或者赞扬，即便是不赞同也不忍心落井下石。正如所谓的“精诚所至，金石为开”，痴情者会在这种环境下得以维持，并最终作茧自缚，被自己编织的爱禁锢一生。鼓励痴情者，就如同支持他吸毒，只能会让他越陷越深。　　痴情是一种病，一种害人害己的病。爱情是自私的，但它绝对是两个人的，不管它是否是两个人的结晶。爱人者不能得到爱，自然是痛苦不堪，但同时又摆出一副大无畏的姿态，有一种“不到黄河心不死”的气概。精神固然可嘉，但越是这样，就越会给被爱者已沉重的负担，折磨他们的良心，以至于对方也无法轻松的追求自己所爱。就如同赶路的时候，总觉得后面有个影子，如何能安心？这其中会有人因为心软，回过头来安抚痴情者，结果被误认成“接受”的信号，从而加重了痴情者的病情，同时加剧了自己的不安。还有的选择委曲求全，在爱没有萌生的时候，被动接受，结果成了一辈子都无法摆脱的错误。而且痴情者在费尽千辛万苦之后得来的爱情，往往不是自己所憧憬的，这种可悲的落差，会瞬间毁灭心中完美的爱情。　　痴情是懦弱的表现，停滞不前，不死进取。爱需要准备，也需要创造，而不是凭一颗“痴心”苦等或坚守。机会总是留给有准备的人的，爱情也是如此。　　痴情是一种病，唯一的解药就是鼓起勇气，不带任何杂念地寻找一份新的爱情。

2008-11-04T05:47:00.000-08:00

爱久了，成了一种习惯

很多时候，过去是无从想念的。遗失了发黄的照片，遗失了曾经保存很久的东西，遗失了枯萎的记忆。伸出手，抓不到任何东西。也许，总有些东西会留在生命最深处，深深浅浅的痕迹，当心轻轻拂过，已不会感到疼痛，只有一份麻木。　　办公室里，喝着咖啡，苦苦的滋味。快乐与忧伤，一切都已成为过去，依然能感受到的那份真实与感动、虚伪与悲伤。眼泪，悄悄滴落在键盘上。　　记得有人说过："当你的眼泪忍不住要流出来的时候，睁大眼睛，千万别眨眼，你会看到世界由清晰到模糊的全过程。心，在眼泪落下的那一刻变得清澈明晰！爱久了，成了一种习惯；痛久了，成了一道刻痕；恨久了，成了一种负担。只是等待，无论时间是否冲淡了一切，心，却在它原来的位置，以固执的方式、速度执著地跳着……　　一个人在你的一生中，遇见一个懂得用心爱你或是遇见一个值得你用心去爱的人，是幸福的。拥有的往往不是最好，因而也不会懂得珍惜。也许，这个时候，等待比拥有更好！　　有心的人，再远也会记挂对方；无心的人，近在咫尺却远在天涯。如果你的爱情停留在曾经，它只属于那个时间；如果你的爱情停留在生命里，它就会成为永恒，甚至超越永远！或许，我们都想永远地忘记一些东西，比如伤痕，我们想永远地忘记一些东西，比如心动，安妮宝贝曾说过："有些事情是可以遗忘的，有些事情是可以纪念的，有些事情是可以甘心情愿的，有些事情却一直无能为力。"你会忘记一切，眼泪不会。也许，很久我们都不会哭了，无论受伤或者心疼，就那么冷眼地看着，或者在嘻笑打闹中隐没了。　　始终，眼泪伴随着时间，不会融化。原本以为一切终成为一张风干的标本……只是，眼泪知道

2008-11-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

遗忘并不是记忆真的消失了

我鼓足了勇气说出分手。我知道我会承受很大的痛苦。心里太乱，想了太多东西。第二天醒来，以为昨晚是一场梦。昨晚的短信还没删，一切都那么真实。突然感觉心里酸酸的。虽然舍不得，但是已经放手了。男人就该拿的起放的下。我知道心里会有留恋，会有如果。但是，这样的感情太累了。我不再热衷什么，不再强求什么。我想以这样的方式来结束三年的感情。给你最后说一声再见。以后路的还长，会改变很多东西。一直不是很了解你。不知道你是一个怎样的人。还是想祝福你以后的路要走好。呵，我现在是用什么身份给你说。没有资格了。以后再也不会有谁会让我这样牵挂。或许是好事吧。至少自己不会那么伤心。以前不知道别人失恋的痛苦。现在自己体会到了。我们终于还是分开了。看到以前的一点一滴，苦笑。心里的苦又有谁了解。我还是像以前一样若无其事。还有很多话没有对你说。心里面再也不会有你了。我会珍藏这份记忆。至少对我来说它很重要。三年来，和你分分合合多少次。再好的感情也会有裂痕的。虽然我还是那么爱你。第一次觉得放不下.第一次心情像海洋.第一次无力抵挡.第一次会那么的渴望.谢谢你给我带了前所未有快乐.只有在你身上.我才找的到一点恋爱的感觉.我早知道你不在乎了。我一直以为我会很快忘了你.我会在你面前装做多不在乎你.我会装的很快乐.我失去的只是一个不爱我的人.而你,却失去了一个爱你的人.我们完了。从现在开始就是自己一个人过了。以后别在那么投入了。爱由一个微笑开始，用一个吻来成长，用一滴泪去结束.当你爱上一个人而不被对方所爱，会是一件很受伤害的事。但最痛苦的莫过你爱一个人而却不得不分开。如果有一天。你能到我的心里去,你一定会流泪。因为那里面全是我给你的爱。如果有一天。我能到你的心里去,我也会流泪。因为那里面全是你的无所谓。还未来的及感慨。你已在不经意间离开。终散成泡沫.谁都不是谁的谁。我很想对自己说。开心一点吧。其实没什么大不了。可是……可是。我最放不下的人始终是你。一直都是。爱到最后。你还是你。我却不是那个自己。是不是只有伤害才是唯一的退路。是不是只有遗忘才是唯一的出路。记的谁说过。遗忘并不是记忆真的消失了。只是你找不到了。但愿我能很快将你遗忘。如果有一天。我们忘记了彼此。那该有多好。我给过你的一切。你随时可以抛弃。包括记忆。最后。还是只剩我一人。过完这一季。悲伤是否还是那么凉……

2008-11-04T05:36:00.000-08:00

牵挂是一种心灵的维系

当你牵挂一个人时,你就会想他是不是也在牵挂你呢?
其实,牵挂与被牵挂在我们的生命中是不可缺少的……因为喜欢才牵挂,因为这种牵挂是不知对方是否也在牵挂你,所以才会忧伤,用心去感受对方的牵挂,并且送上真诚的祝福.牵挂对方时,会有很对的美妙的联想,有瞬间的甜美.
牵挂包含着一种欣赏,也包含着爱的成分.相互牵挂会让彼此在不知不觉中走进对方,会有一份和谐与默契使对方感动.
牵挂是心灵散发出的一缕淡香,悠远而绵长.
牵挂是静溢的思绪,亦美亦纯.亦忧亦愁.
牵挂是不加任何雕琢,没有矫情装饰.
牵挂是一份烂漫,一份深沉,一份纯美,一份质朴,
牵挂是一杯清茶,飘荡着淡雅的清香,却苦的有味,苦的醇厚,别有一番韵味.
牵挂是纯洁,纯真,没有绚丽.
牵挂是彼此爱慕的情结,美丽而神秘,让你心动,让你兴奋.
牵挂是没有扭捏,没有娇柔造作.
牵挂是奔放而热情,是含蓄而深沉.牵挂是春风,是夏雨,是秋叶,是冬雪.
牵挂是生活中鲜活的风景丰富而多彩.牵挂是心灵相通的知己,爱的感悟,爱的升华,有满足有陶醉.
牵挂是一种幸福,是一种隐隐的痛,也是一种真实的感情,也是一种遥遥的祝愿,牵挂是遥远的思念,是爱的寄托,是陶醉与温暖的希望,有无穷的美丽,让人神往.
牵挂是一幅浓郁淡雅的画卷,是自然质朴的情韵.有阳光,有花语,有鸟鸣,有清风,有明月,也有一丝清幽,一丝忧郁,一丝凄凉,一丝失落.
牵挂是一种忧伤的美，当你牵挂一个人时，你就会想他是不是也在牵挂你……
其实，牵挂与被牵挂在我们的生命中是不可缺少的……因为喜欢才牵挂，因为这种牵挂是不知对方是否也在牵挂你，所以才会忧伤，而这种忧伤只能自己默默的承受，忧伤会让你心酸悲痛，让你在生活中惴惴不安……牵挂对方时，有欢喜有悲伤，用心去感受对方的牵挂，并且送上真诚的祝福。
牵挂对方时，会有很多的美妙的联想，如梦如幻，还有瞬间的甜美。
牵挂包含着一种欣赏，也包含着爱的成分，因为爱才会彼此欣赏。相互牵挂会让彼此在不知不觉中走进对方，会有一份和谐与默契使对方感动……
牵挂是心灵散发出的一缕淡香，悠远而绵长。
牵挂是静溢的思绪，亦美亦纯，亦忧亦愁。
牵挂是不加任何雕琢，没有矫情装饰。
牵挂是一份烂漫，一份深沉，一份纯美，一份质朴。
牵挂是一杯清茶，飘荡着淡雅的清香，却苦的有味，苦的醇厚，别有一番韵味。
牵挂是纯洁，纯真，没有绚丽。牵挂是彼此爱慕的情结，美丽而神秘，让你游动，让你兴奋。
牵挂是没有扭捏，没有矫柔造作。
牵挂是奔放而热情，是含蓄而深沉。
牵挂是春风，是夏雨，是秋叶，是冬雪。
牵挂是生活中鲜活的风景丰富而多彩。
牵挂是心灵相通的知己，爱的感悟，爱的升华，有满足有陶醉
。牵挂是一种幸福，是一种隐隐的痛，也是一种真实的感情，也是一种遥遥的祝愿，
牵挂是遥远的思念，是爱的寄托，是陶醉于温暖的希望，有无穷的魅力，让人神往。牵挂是一幅浓郁淡雅的画卷，是自然质朴的情韵。有阳光，有花语，有鸟鸣，有清风，有明月。也有一丝清幽，一丝忧郁，一丝凄凉，一丝失落。
牵挂是一种忧伤的美……走进了人生,便走进了牵挂，
牵挂是美丽的，也是痛苦的；牵挂是春天美丽动人的鲜花；
牵挂是夏日阵阵清凉的微风；牵挂是秋天满园累累的果实；
牵挂是冬夜悄然飘舞的雪花牵挂是一杯愈久愈香的琼浆玉液，
牵挂是一朵萦思绕怀的五彩祥云，醉了两人的心扉，绽放了两朵心花牵挂是夜夜珠泪枕上落的悲；
牵挂是停杯投箸不能食的蠢；
牵挂是冷雨敲窗不成眠的呆；牵挂是菱花镜里形容瘦的痴；
牵挂是望穿秋水不思归的愚；牵挂是是衣带渐宽终不悔的傻。
牵挂是人之间最珍贵的情感，牵挂是慷慨的给予和无私的奉献，
牵挂是深深的祝福与默默的祈祷，它不近功利、不含虚假；牵挂是一种情感的交织；
牵挂是一种心灵的维系；牵挂是一份浓郁的思念。
牵挂一个人，你会忆起昔日彼此相处时的温馨；忆起与之挽臂徜徉、同歌轻唱的快乐；忆起寂寞时她悉心的陪伴；忆起痛苦时她耐心的开导；
牵挂一个人,你会忆起失意时她温暖的话语；忆起伴嘴后她悔痛的内疚；忆起她哭泣时你的失措惊惶；忆起你任性时她的大度宽容；忆起你烦心时她幽默的笑话；忆起你调皮时她甜甜的笑声。
牵挂一个人，你会为其乐而乐，为其忧而忧，你更会从心底滋生出许多莫名的惆怅；
牵挂一个人，你会惦着她的衣食住行；你会关注她的喜怒哀乐；你会在意她的一颦一笑；你会在乎她的一举一动。
牵挂一个人，你会为得不到她的消息而愁肠百结；你会为不能和她长相守而寝食不安；你会为那悠悠相思坐立不宁；你会因那缕缕的离愁黯然神伤。
一份牵挂，平衡了情感天平的失重，
一份牵挂，填补了内心深处的虚空，分手的时间越久，离别的距离越远，牵挂的份量越重。
有了那份牵挂，孤寂跋涉的路有了，欣慰的精神伴侣，有了别人对你的牵挂，平淡无奇的岁月就多了幸福的满足和美丽的风景。一个平凡的日子，或者一段极为平淡的经历，能使牵挂感慨无限。
深深的牵挂，像一根长藤延伸在人生的旅程……

2008-11-04T05:35:00.000-08:00

我丢了爱情，丢了心

曾经以为自己是个很坚强的人，即使失去爱情，也可以活出自己的精彩，其实不是，我不明白为什么人总要在经历一些事情之后才能多了解自己一点，如果一切都可以避免，就不会这么伤心了…… 我丢掉了我的爱情…… 曾经以为自己是世界上最幸福的人，即使失去一切，我还有爱情，其实不是，直到有一天他和我说他不爱我的时候我就知道一切都是自己在骗自己，以为自己真的找到了懂得爱自己的人，谁知那个人却不是他…… 我丢掉了我的心…… 曾经以为自己没心没肺，即使受过伤害，也会很快忘记做回快乐的自己，其实不是，到处都是他留下的记忆，越想忘记，反而会记得越深，每一次想起都会让自己很痛很痛…… 我丢掉了我的快乐…… 曾经听说过做一个女人的最高境界是可以分配自己的感情，40%的爱情，50%的亲情，10%的其它感情，所以聪明的女人即使失去了爱情，也不会是一无所有。但我现在是真的一无所有…… 我丢掉了我自己…… 曾经以为伤我们最深的是爱情，其实不是，时间可以治疗爱情留下的痛，却带不走深刻在脑海里的记忆。没有了爱情，却仍然记得你第一次说爱我，第一次牵我的手，第一次吻我，第一次叫我亲爱的，第一次叫我宝贝er，第一次叫我老婆大人……所带给我满心的感动与幸福……wwww.qzoner.com 我丢不掉回忆…… 曾经以为自己很富有，其实不是，我丢掉了爱情，丢掉了心，丢掉了快乐，丢掉了自己，唯一丢不掉的只有回忆…… 原来有许多原来我不懂……

2008-11-04T05:32:00.000-08:00

爱情的九种微妙感觉

第一种--美丽的感觉　　俗话说情人眼里出西施，所以在有爱情的时候，你一定会觉得对方最好看，即使有别的异性比你爱的对象好看，但对你而言，他才是你心中最没的一个，而且是别人无法相比的。
第二种--亲爱的感觉　　当你爱上一个人，你会有种很亲切的感觉，跟他在一起，你会觉得很舒服，很和谐。你可以信任并依赖他。他像是一个亲密的家人，甚至可以说，比一个家人更亲密，而且在这亲密里，你更体会到一份温馨的感觉——这就是亲爱的感觉。在这个爱情的国度里，他愿意包容你所有的缺点。
第三种--羡慕及尊重有感觉　　一个健康的爱情关系，应当有以对方为荣的感觉，你会欣赏对方所有的一切，包括内在与外在的条件和优点，并且对方也让你感觉，他处处以你为荣。如果这种感觉存在的话，不论他做这件事是成功或失败，你都会欣赏他的才华，而不是重视结果。
第四种--赞许的爱情　　相爱的时候，你是否喜欢夸奖对方，而且不仅是欣赏，或敷衍了事而已，你还会喜欢在他不在的时候想其他人讲述他的种种好，哪怕帮你泡一碗方便面。重要的是，你从夸奖对方的热诚之中感到无比的快乐。
第五种--受到尊重的自尊　　爱情关系可以提高一个人的自尊心，可以让个你感觉到生活的意义，因为爱情能够让你发现，其实你有着无人可比的独特性，虽然你有优点，也有缺点，但是你的独特性使你敌后到无比的尊重，生命也因此无比的快乐。
第六种--占有欲　　爱情是绝对独占的，是不能与他人分享其亲密的男女关系，因此，当爱情从不确定走向稳定后，需要以婚姻来持续以后的日子，所以我们在结婚时彼此相约相许。在真实的爱情生活里，活象许诺忠诚是必要的。
第七种--行动自由　　如果一个人有正当的理由，他行动的自由一定要受到尊重，这样才不会破坏两人之间的爱情关系。爱情跟着感觉走的人虽然十分令人担心湖泊生气，但是对于热爱岁性生活的人而言，限制或约束一点用都没有，还不如给他自由，空间。他总会回来的。
第八种--深深的同情　　人们对深爱的人常会有怜惜的感觉，经常会为对方考虑，如果对方受到挫折，我们会非常愿意为他分担痛苦与挫折，把对方所受的苦当作自己所遭遇的苦难一样，或是更胜于自己的苦难，因为爱情里，我们愿意为对方而牺牲自己的利益。
第九种--生理上的性冲动　　当我们在对一为异性产生兴趣或是爱上某位异性时，都希望彼此有身体的接触。在正式的爱情生活里这种欲望是永远存在的。性冲动并不是单单只是行为，它还包括了许多其他亲密的身体上的接触，如牵手，拥抱等等，这种情感会永远存在于爱人心中。

2008-11-04T05:26:00.002-08:00

在雨天里对的祝福
這是我[ 專屬 ]的祝福_

以遇到喜歡的女孩子
①｀經常告訴她妳愛她。
②｀多花時間陪她哪怕什麽都不做只是打通電話聽她呢喃。＼
③｀如果足夠（喜愛她）、那么吵架的時候請多壹點妥協。
④｀再生氣也要記得回頭牽她的手，不輕易答應那些（分手、）氣話＼寬容的告訴她ˉ 妳會永遠把她說的 [ 分手] 當作是假話。＼
⑤｀要充滿自信笑的時候也要神采奕奕 , 要知道壹個女孩如果可以在她最美麗的年紀義無反顧的去愛妳ˉ 那么她壹定是深愛著妳 - 在她的心中妳就是「神」．所以請珍惜這樣的感情 ˉ勇敢的當她的天空〃所以要很細心的擁有她霸占她。
⑥｀不要把她扔在角落里 ˉ特別是那些沒有安全感的女孩。
⑦｀也不要對著深深喜愛的人說尖銳傷害的話 ˉ 她會因為愛妳而很難過很難過ˉ請不要把鋒利的刺插入她的真心。
⑧｀呵呵最重要的是ˇ＂再怎么色色的也不可以在她的面前看漂亮的女女哦．。不可以對著她的溫柔稱贊其她女子可人的面龐。．呵呵在喜歡的人面前女孩子都是很小氣很自卑的哦ˉ ．
這些是我在雨天里對你「幸福」的祝福。 . 那么從今往後 [ 幸福 ] 好嗎？＿晚安。

2008-11-04T05:26:00.001-08:00

只要你愿意，当你失落失意的时候，最需要一个肩膊的时候，告诉我，我会立即出现。我好喜欢你呦，我喜欢你的鼻子，我喜欢你的眼睛，我还喜欢你经常对我发怒得样子。真的好喜欢你！爱你一万年，是我的追求；恋你一千年，是我的渴望；而吻你一次，则是我一生中最快乐的时光；答应我，嫁给我吧！如果有来世，我愿意做你的瞳孔，在你照镜子的时候，可以把你最深情的注视给我！在爱情的世界里，我一无所有，也一无所知，在情感的小站里，我愿你是第一位来客，也是永远的主人，伴着我宠着我；一生一世。在你抑郁的时候，我就是你的开心果。在你忧伤的时候，我愿作你的忘忧树！想你至深，念你至醇……吾爱，你可知道？对于我，你的笑最重要！如果我的存在为你带来一丝负担你只需轻轻吹一口气，我就会随风飘去因为，爱不是负担。在人生艰辛的跋涉中，愿我们化做两盏明灯——互相照耀，互相温暖。愿你永远拥有我，愿我永远拥有你，我们一起，走向崭新的生活。假如生活重新开始，我的爱人——依然是一条风雨的长途，依然不知疲倦的奔走——让我们紧紧地拉住手！你如阳光般洒进了我的世界，我的生命因你而精彩！亲爱的你，请陪我走到海枯石烂，好吗？如果你要嫁人，不要嫁给别人，一定要嫁给我。拿上你的存折，带着你的妹妹，开着那宝马来！三十年后，如果世界上还有坚持这个词，我希望它属于我；三十年后，如果世界上还有感动这个词，我希望它属于你……只怕来不及，我要抱着你，只到看着你的发上留下了白雪的痕迹……从看到你的那一刻起，我的心跳就告诉我你是我今生等待的人。你给了我勇气和动力，我会用一生的努力来呵护这份心动的。独自走了这么多年，也没觉得什么，直到遇上你。你愿意陪我把剩下的路走完么？希望睡前可以看到你，希望睡时可以抱著你，希望醒来可以看到你。佛说：跪求500年可以等到你爱的人。但我却用了600年等你，还有一百年人们称它为“百年好合”。我们的爱真的是没有结局的吗？我很怕……为什么你要对我这么好？我真的很想跟你结婚……可以吗？这世界上也许有很多人比你更适合我，但我知道只有你最爱我。不管怎样，我要和你过完这辈子，下辈子，下下辈子。我要你要我！我想和你一起变成老人！等到那时我们的头发变成苍白，我们已不再年轻，如果你还会对我一如即往，那我就是这世上最幸福的人。任何事我都想和你分享，因为除了你我再也找不到另一个与我相配的女人。我答应不会让任何人伤害你，包括我自己在内。相信我，我会给你幸福。想证明我五十年后一样爱你，因为想证明我是全世界最爱你的，因为想和你一起去竞选模范夫妻。多少次在梦里有你的身影，多少次独自内心里呼唤你，只想牵你手，漫步人生路，爱多伟大，结婚吧！

2008-11-04T04:41:00.000-08:00

怎么知道你已经爱上一个人了

1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著他的电话..
2.如果你喜欢和他两个人单独漫步..
3.当你和他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当他离开你的视线时，你会急著寻找他...
4.当他受伤或生病时，你会很关心他，替他著急..
5.当他和别人要好时，你会感到吃味...
6.当他把脸贴近你时，你会感到脸红.心跳加速..
7.当你看到他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..
8.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人..

你已经喜欢上他了..

2008-11-04T04:13:00.000-08:00

damn sianz . nowadays got tuition . yesterday went to work . told mummy that i sell clothes , but i went to play pool to earn . one year nv play pool le . now rusty . then singapore number o9 and o2 came to teach mie . yay ! free of charge . i need to change alot of things . need to start from th basic again . standing position and bridging . was so damn fcuking tiring . whad th hell , train th fcuking straight ball for more than o2 hours . damn fcuking tired . then went home bare-legged . reached home , mum told mie that this coming saturday got wedding dinner . mye godbrother de . yay ! can wear until very nice and put make up le . must take alot of picture . i hope i die that time also so pretty so everyone can rmb mie . especially you .

i really love him , can he sense that ?

i miss him , does he knows that ?

i care for him , does he understand ?

he don,t understand , he just don,t !

从男人吻你的部位看清他的品质

额头—他积极创造人生。善于适应环境，有良好的人际关系，对爱人极其温柔体贴。　　

眼睛—他是希望喜欢征服的爱情骑士，并且能够为爱牺牲一切。同时这种人也很喜欢亲吻恋人的其他性感地带。　　　

脸颊—他善良友好，希望以和为贵，是重视友谊的人。能完全能够忠于爱情却比较容易受骗。　

耳朵—他是极有洞察力的人，很容易就能了解别人的心事和痛苦，在感情上他敢爱敢恨，也很会利用别人达到自己的目的。　　

嘴部—他是对爱情专一的人，吻了就代表已经以身相许，这种人很自信且具有强烈的道德观。　

脖子—他对爱情并不专一，无法专心谈一场天长地久的恋爱，同时却会要求女人为他苦苦等待。　　　　

头发—在两性关系上，他爱吃醋、占有欲望很强.

2008-11-02T19:57:00.000-08:00

damn pissed th day before . after i hanged th phone on 5.3oam . i felt sad and th thing had been bothering mie till today . i don,t know why but it doesn,t feels good . omg , i am going crazy . went shopping ytd . bought a red skinny , one tight tee , blouse and a slip on shoes ! yay ! finally got new clothing ! took a bus , wanted to protect jiejjie so asked her to sit with mummy . but mummy asked her to sit with mie . i don,t want mummy to sit alone so i gave a black face . in th end , i got a damn scolding . don,t know mye intentions . i did cry , i don,t know why they can,t understand mie ? hais . then came home , did reader,s digest . hais . damn sianz . then went to bed . talked on th phone with edward gorgor . he biting his lips stud so can,t help mie count sheeps . so he promised to count for mie after he bought a stud and when his lips is less swollen ! yay ! talked for o1 and a half hour ! then edwind gor came back he helped mie count sheeps . i don,t know he count until whr dhen i sleep le . damn tired but forced myself to be awake just to hear a hello from someone . he may not be perfect but he is near perfect . i love him because of his weaknesses . i think i am thinking too much . i am a no-one to him . does he cares ? can he feels thAt i am thinking about him ? does he knows that i cared for mie ? or worst still , 他知道我的存在吗？我爱你但你却爱着她 !

2008-11-01T01:28:00.000-07:00

continuing th post last night . he did brought mie down and flag a cab for mie . before taking a cab , i said i want to take a picture with edward gor but he said it was too dark . hais . reach clementi , jie still havent board her cab . so i was alone . damn scary . mye house dhr quite dark dhen mye house dhr got funeral . omg , so 'lucky' . wanted to go to joey,s house but nobody ans th phone . so went to th coffee shop . luckily i found mervyn and family to accompany mie . hais . damn scary . got home , watch tv ad start blogging . halfway through gor came back so stopped halfway . after updating , go into th room and called gor gor . edward gor picked up th phone and said that he was going to bed . in th end , i called ad 3.10 again , he was still studying (playing dota) , why is he so hardworking ? hahas . talked on th phone with edwind gor . halfway through , he hang th phone . he said that he will call mie back . i waited for his call till 5.3o but he didn,t .

& That beautiful smile of yours, I wonder if I could ever see it again .

You'll never know why sometimes I smile & walk away ,

its simply because that smile contains something which I cant say .

You were everything , everything I need .

2008-10-31T10:26:00.000-07:00

came back from edwind,s house . he around 9.3o wake up le . but missed mye show so doesn,t want to watch anymore . but he was so damn pissed . when he want to sleep , i woke him up . but he don,t want to sleep , i forced him to go to bed . in th end , he didn,t go back to sleep . he played mye psp and yuelun,s psp . then edward gor gor came back . he is so fierce . he came back with a damn fcuking black face . they look alike . i mean edwind gor and edward gor . omg , they really can be twins . then edwind gor went oud to eat , then left mie and edward gor . ad first i was afraid of being left alone as i don,t know whether edward gor will bring mie down to take a cab . will be continued tmr morning .

2008-10-31T05:36:00.001-07:00

hais , so siianz . now ad edwind,s house blogging . tha pig sleeping . don,t want to wake up . hais . damn sianz de laas . must think of ways to wake him up . firstly , he is,t scared of being 'tickled' . secondly , i don,t that he got any weakness for mie to wake him up . and lastly , he is too cute when asleep . i can,t bear to wake him up . he is always sleeping . but th way he sleeps looks cute ! whenever i am i his house , he sleeps . so i took pictures of him with th cute sleeping face . watching th coffin . omg ! a horror movie . even though is mye favourite , i am still scared of th dark . night blindness is like shit . ad first , you will think daht having it will be so 'cool' but after you got it , you will think that it is a fcuking piece of shit . hais , its confirm that jie and jiefu no going to watch with us . so left mie and edwind . i am very happybut i don,t know whad is he thinking about . i should understand him more . not just by staring ad him whenever i can . hais . as long as i can see him , it doesn,t matter whather he knows i am looking ad him . i am damn fcuking angry with him . no matter how hard i try , i still can,t wake him up . pinch his nose , beat him up , slap him . move him around , no fcuking reaction . he is just a dead pig ! no..no..he is a dead monkey . born on the 13 of feb 1992 . whad th hell . why godma gave birth to a monkey who only knows how to sleep !!! i give up on waking him up . if i can wake him up , that means i can wake th deads up !!!

2008-10-30T19:22:00.000-07:00

continuing from ytd's post . reached clementi , walked home . its so dark , can,t see (night blindness) abit only . then edwind asked of dhr is anyone in front of us . evem though i can,t see , i still can use mye ears to hear . hehes . halfway through , we talked about alot of things . we played a game , our back faced easch other , i count to three , we each walk three steps forward . then count to three again , turn to look ad each other . if either of them us away , it means that we will nvr meet again . neither him nor mie runs . i was so happy that i ran forward to hug him , cried . i think i really can,t live without him . now i know why all mye relationship can,t last . i don,t know why i trust him that much . he gives mie a kind of...a kind of...secured feeling . whenever i am with him , i am not afraid of anything . from th mrt to mye hse is only a 1omins walk but we took half an hour . cool . he must see mie go into mye hse then he will go . tonight , going to watch th coffin with him again . YAY! i wonder if he will rmb . hais . but hoped so . mye jie and mye jiefu don,t want to go . then left mie and him . omg ! to mie maybe its a good thing but to him , maybe he will feel bored .

2008-10-29T19:31:00.000-07:00

this shld be posted ytd but mummy came home so didn,t post . on th 28th october , ANNABEL NGO SUXIN went to china with th school . she don,t know anyone in th choir except shahir . so i asked him to take care of her . i scared she don,t know how to take care of herself . even though she is older then him , i think that she need ppl to take care of her . its only th third day and i am missing her like hell . omg . they are coming back on th 7th of nov . YAY ! going airpot to fetch them . countdown : 8 days .on th 28th , i went to th airport to see her off , with edwind lim . ad o8pm that night , went to his house to wait for him to get ready . then took a train to th airport . omg , its so embarrassing . when i came oud of th mrt station , it hought i t was terminal o1 . so i called bel to ask her whr was she .she was in terminal o1 , counter 11 and i was in terminal o3 , counter 11 . she asked mie to shout her name and i did . it was so embarrassing . luckily , edwind was beside mie . so i could hide mye face . hahas . took th skytrain to terminal o1 . finally , i get to see her . it was damn embarrassing . edwind lim bought sushi ! only know how to eat , eat , eat . as i was "holding" edwind's hand , mr wong thought we were together .when they were checking in , i talked to mr lin(ms yap,s boyfriend) . i told him ad first i was going but in th end can,t . coz got ppl lie to mie . i said that so loud purposely for th person to hear mie . so everyone near mie looked ad mie . its th second time being embarrassed . after they went in , we went home . we took th skytrain back to terminal o3 . it was extremely quiet . then he screamed . we act as if we weren,t th one screaming . but we kept laughing . hahas . th third time of embarrassing ourselves . took th last train back . no small change to buy th green card . asked so many ppl until met a guy . we were lucky enough to catch th last train home . we ran into th train and kept laughing . then he send mie home . will be continued tmr .

2008-10-10T22:44:00.000-07:00

yay ! monday last paper , biology ! watched midnight ytd , connected(th show name) . watch with mye jie and mye'family' . edward gor gor also in th theatre . ad first , he was right ad th side of th theatre and i am in th middle of th theatre . i can,t see as i didn,t wear mye specs . but i know that someone is looking in direction ad mie . then , he moved with his friend near mie i mean a seat away . i was shocked as his friend sat nearer to mie and i don,t know him . when th show end , dhen i saw gor gor . he is damn tan and skinny . but he looked fierce . looked th same as his younger bro . also mye gor gor . hais . no wonder they are brothers . they looked black , skinny and fierce , look like twins . hair also so long . ytd night reached home , called gor gor(edwind) but he talking to stesha(da sao) . he called mie ad o2 . then chatted for awhile then he went o bath . he said that i became cuter . i know him for three years and th first time he said that i am cute was this year . i am so happy . after mye bio paper , i going gor hse . he cooking for mie as mye birthday present . i hoped that both mye gor gor will cook for mie . but gor said his gor won,t cook de laas . so sad . i hintting edward gor gor . he cooking spaghetti . yeah . he owes mie mye presnt for o2 months le . hais . but i am really happy . ad least he is sincere .

2008-10-03T04:41:00.000-07:00

to mernel ,
rest in peace . may th lord be with you . must be happy and carry on with your life in th other world . i miss you . be happy with whad you have . must listen to your daddy , eddy worx . stay in mye memories forever . lets make friends in our next lifes .

to eddy ,
rest in peace . may th lord be with you . since you chose this road , continue with it . don,t stop . stay happy . you will always be remebered . stay in mye memories forever . i miss you . take good care of yourself and mernel . lets makes friends in our next lifes .

didn,t blog for quite long le . i am really very sad . i think i won,t be blogging for quite long . because of exams .

2008-09-12T05:11:00.000-07:00

END OF YEAR EXAM COMING LE !

today cried during A and E maths lesson . hais , heart broken . i don,t know why am i no trustable to him . he asked mie 'do you still love mie ?' not th first time le . don,t trust mie then stead for whad . i don,t know i can still take it anot . if its th first time still okay laas . after o2 months plus le , he still ask . he can go so close with 'dyianna'or whadever can,t i also be close to his good friend . don,t even trust his gd friend . might as well break laas horx . on tuesday , went for jazz dance class . it was so fun , i love dancing . but for th first lesson , after you have come back , you will have your whole body ache . its super pain . can,t even sit , stand or bend properly . but must continue with the lesson to go on diet . nowadays eat a bit lesser and try to excercise more . always go california fitness on saturday and sunday . very tiring . anyway must start studying le . brought all mye books from batok back to clementi . it,s so damn heavy . hais .

time for replying tags
boon keat:i try to update more okay ?welcome . i got nth to do so help you lo .
xiangyu:sorry laas . must tell th whole world i bit you ar ?
kelly:no vulgarities .
xanne:its okay laas . over over le . don,t say le .

2008-09-03T17:44:00.000-07:00

mye very very late birthday present
yueloon-->rubik,s cube
sorry , ytd didn,t post finish . halfway through mummy came back and she doesn,t know dhat i have a blog ! finally know how to play a rubik,s cube . thought i t was difficult to learn but it was damn easy . just follow th formula and you will get it . hms , still got someone who owe mie mye present lo . don,t know who leys . his name got o6 letters , start with S and end with R . hais . birthday past le so long , still haven,t give mie . omg . he CMI alrdy ! thought he start his lesson ad 1o.oo today but he starts ad o8 . i slept ad o4 ytd and woke up ad o7.

replies to tag
joey:hellos sweetheart . i miss you . welcome too .
alan:thanks .
xin xin:ya lo . solong nv see le . you must come back yusof find mie . takecare too .
xanne:you so busy ma .

2008-09-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY o2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY
baby , i think that times flows fast . after all th things we had gone through , i have more confident in our relationship . we will last long ! i love you xo3 !

i misss th TYZ people alot ! talked to jia kang on msn and on th phone ! seeing baby tomorrow . never see him for o5 days alrdy . miss him lots . can,t wait until tomorrow . wished today is tomorrow but impossible . tomorrow going choir . xanne not going cause she having meeting with miss ang and miss teh . hais . why i worked so hard just to get a head in choir , i just can,t make it . tried so hard in making mye own way up but i failed . from today onwards , i am not going to work hard on anything anymore . all th things in choir is i do de . hais . without doing anything ROXANNE HENG MANCHING can get th post . I GIVE UP !

replies to tag
shahir:whad ?
alex gor gor: hellos .
b.k:happy laas .
joey:hellos sweet

2008-09-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd mnth baby
2mnth like very long leh
hahahaha

well we've gone through alot of things together
but we still made it
(: your alway mine baby

-Shahir

2008-08-31T10:32:00.000-07:00

hellos . i am back . mye results sucks totally . got zero for mye chemistry just because of th stupid project . hais . i missed th TYZ people badly . me phone sucks . can,t have international calls . whad th . hais . sorry boon keat for biting you . really doesn,t know hat it hurts so much . next time i bite , i bite softer okay ? just kidding . i actually called jia kang twice . once when he was having lesson and asked mie , qin yu and shenqi to call back later but didn,t . another time was using mye friend,s phone . can,t believed he actually misses us , everyone he knows in singapore . anyway , happy teachers' day to all th teachers in th world . you had done your best in helpin th students . i , kathlynteomt , on behalf of all th students in th world thanks you guys for your patience and guidance . thank you .

replies to tag
edwind gor:i love you gor . when your n level end le tell mie .
dinnie:lame laas .
shahir:ASS did i ask you to go and die before ?

2008-08-24T01:28:00.001-07:00

hellos.
its not kathlyn here
she asked me to post something
but seriously i got nothing to post
hahaha really
hmmm..
i guess ill help her to reply tags
Vivien: arigato
Ah Pui Gor: thks also
Shahir: HEY stupid boy, what harharlo? nothing else to tag ah
Edwind gor: yah your mei a little slow HEHeee

well thats all cox i feel weird to reply for her
hahaha to shahir
GO AND DIE

hahahaha
well regards, Shahir

2008-08-22T08:59:00.000-07:00

belated presents received
janelle-->pooh bear
arthur-->red packet
xihao-->small pig

sorry , so long never blog . only can blog on friday , saturday and sunday . on thursday , 22aug , choir performed in the canteen . sudden change in venue from the foyer to canteen . omg , th performance sucks totally . CMI . the strike it up was damn difficult . as for you raise mie up , it was fine . but too bad edwind gor and monkey gor was not dhr to see their mei performance . shahir and mie wore 'couple shirt' but in th end , kevin wore the same one as us . sadd arhz . went to far east plaza . roxanne heng thought that lucky plaza is far east and made mie walked a big round . met the TYZ friends . got to know fengjiakang(meinu) , feng sthsth (forget the name le) , zhang(same surname as mie) , mr lee , mr bean and alot . ad first wanted to keep th keychain but joey wants . ad first we were sntching it . she gave attitude suddenly so i gave her the keychain . hais . on friday , 23aug , perform for TYZ . it was much more better than the canteen performance . bought things for dhem but don,t know whether want to give anot . hais . went to night safari wid them . IT IS TH FIRST TIME I WENT AND WILL BE TH LAST TIME TOO . THIS STUPID GIRL hERE GOT NIGHT BLINDNESS STILL GO NIGHT SAFARI . WASTE MONEY . joey cried , jia kang cried . i don,t want to cry in front of them . i went home from jurong east to clementi , i cried like fcuk and everyone in th bus was looking ad mie . but i don,t care bout mye image le , can,t take it . even though i only know them for around o2 days . as long as we interact before , we are friends . i hope they won,t forget mie , th unreasonable girl .

replies to tag
geoklan:thanks for linking
baoru:hellos
jieying:thanks
zoe:hellos . we must find a day to go oud . long time no see le .
ya . mye bf is a stupid boy .
andrea:whad wintermelon spitting creature ? anyway , sorry .
geokyong:thanks
b.k:huh ? like wo too ? whad is th meaning . don,t understand . i very wols de .
chewmei:thanks . takecare too .
vivian:thanks
Ed:welcome
melanie:life is not so good . takecare .
monkey ah gor: i express . taking o level next year laas .
you also must study hard .
nadya:thanks . i love you too . you are also a good friend .
freida: will relink you soon .

2008-08-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

slept ad o5 am ytd .thanks gor gor . i love th pic you made .i love you too gor gor .thanks for protecting mie . hope you will come back and find mie . you know whad , no matter how angry i am , you still got ways to make mie forgive you . i don,t know why ? maybe is because i treat you as mye real gor . monkey gor is also mye real gor . thanks you . i love you .

replies to tag ,
claudia:thank you .
xiian:thank you daddy . its okay . i think you still owe mie sth .
roxxi:xanne , i got no choice . if we don,t cut down on th calls .
his parents will confiscate his phone again . hais .
kellaye:ya whadever . asshole . love you too .
melanie:i still rmb you laas . one of mye triplet de jie .
edwiind:gor gor , i love you . i miss you . thanks for fulfilling mye wish .
i love you . i love you . as mye gor .
shahir:don,t think too much . edwind is mye brother only .
th way he treats mie makes mie have those kind of security .
anyway , mie and him impossible coz i have you . i love you xo3 .

2008-08-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

gor make for mie de .

2008-08-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

hellos hellos .
i am quite bored now . currently staying ad mye nanny,s house .mye mum is angry with mie . omg .will get it from her tomorrow .yay ! tomorrow going california exercise .going on diet just for baby .he should be touch , but he won,t .still waiting for mye present .weixiang,s , boonkeng,s , janelle,s and his .mr wong saw th o5th letter i wrote to baby .omg , don,t know when he will tease mie .he said dhat mye skirt is getting shorter ,but it,s like normal laas . is he notice it after he read it .omg , i think he will tease mie sooner or later . PL said the same thing .i hope he don,t . please god , ask him not . hahas .just trying to be lame . woke up ad o7.3o just because of the physics remedial .hais damn boring . in th science slc also so hot .mrs chiam set th aircon ad 25 degree celsius .omg , can,t stand it . after that , walked to caltex . kellaye , yuying , weiqi , peiling , lihong , nadya , jiayun and mie played until like siao . we were arguing about how the word hicky is pronunounce when kellaye started saying hiking . as we walked , kellaye saw yuying,s neck wid a red mark . i was like acting lesbian and walked near and said that i want to give her a hicky too . dhen she scream . don,t know for whad . she screamed alot of times . it is the first tie i saw her feminine side . hahas . weiqi , PL , jiayun and i went to caltex , others went home . ate alot egs , chicken wing , cup noodle and a bottle of milk tea . ad 11.45 , saw linh , syed and victor . dhey came in to eat and th three girls pangseh mie . dhey ate and we talked . after dhat , went to cityhall . dhen shop ad bugis , dhen came aljunied . can say that dhis is also mye house . better stop , this looks like a compo to mie .

replies to tag ,
joeychua:you come back from whr ?
tere:it,s okay .
linh: thanks from your hippogirl .
desiree: will de .
doreen jie: i love you .
cymkng:okay .
glenda:thanks .

to shahir ,
how,s mye blog ? don,t forget whad you had promised mie as i hate those who break promises . you should know the consequences . you nvr send mie your pic so i never post your pic .you haven,t tag mie today . i think ou forgot le . you forgetful boy . i think your bill dhis month is going to bomb le . i sms over a 1ooo le . sms all those rubbish and you called mie for so long almost every morning . shld cut down on dhat too .

2008-08-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

replies to tag ,
ky:happy happy . thanks .
yiting:thankyou .
dinah:love you .
nick:ya , very long . don,t meet better .
damn ugly , and fat !! thankyou .
yongchee:nice my ass . damn ugly lo .
changing soon . don,t know
when is the next time i will
be posting . need to see mye mood .

2008-08-15T05:13:00.001-07:00

present i received
roxanne--> keychain (damn ex)
uncle--> o1 red packet
grandpa-->o1 red packet
janelle , melissa & jiwon-->birthday card
qinyu-->a drawing of mye name and a qingtian wawa .
huiqing--> a photo frame
minmin--> abooklet
nadya--> a blue contact lens

thank you for the presents .

today so relax . o4 periods of lessons and o1 recess ,
o3 periods free . o3 ana a half hour did nothing .
damn relax . celestene say 3e1 no need to study de .
she wants to go 4e1 next year . hahas .
updated his blog , changing link soon .
making mye wish list as long as possible .
weixiang give mie de present still with boon keng .
boon keng haven,t give mie mye present .
sad ah . say don,t know whad to give mie .
when i finsh mye wish list , he will be having a headache .
as he will be wondering whad to buy for mie .
mye black w81oi spoil lez .
no phone to use lez . hais . sad . can,t sms .

baby , you still haven,t give mie mye present .
tag mie everyday . help mie update too .
thank you . i love you .

2008-08-09T18:15:00.000-07:00

countdown : o1 day to mye birthday .
who gave mie mye present lez ,
mummy-->o1 big doggy , o2 packets of sweet & o1 red packet .
godma , godpa , alexis & alyssa-->o1 big mickey mouse .
duxin--> o1 small brown bearbear .

so long nv update lez .
lazy to do so nowadays .
not enough time also .
so excited , mye birthday coming ,
hopes everyone remembers .
mye grandparents , father , relatives only remebers mye brother,s & sister,s birthday .

replies
pebbles:hellos , forget to link him lo .
i also lazy to update , maybe deleting it .
must see mye mood , i want update then update de .
tere:hellos .
demilim:okay , ahma .
joeyn(mango)joey: i miss you too . still alive laas .
devilx33:gor will relink you de . you and gleda very close arhz ?
cel.:yes? siaoehs .
glenda: okay .
kelly:jie , im not dead okay .

to shahir ,
baby , good lorx . in friendster never give mie comments .
blog also nvr tag . i think you also don,t know i got blog laas .
hais , you so busy , mye birthday also can,t celebrate with mie .
never even spend time with mie . hais . so sad laas .

2008-03-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

so long never update my profile lez .
like die lez ba . omg , encik
john is like so shuai .
so shuai until i want to die .
i thinking i like ban hua chi laas .
but i,m not . >>>
he is like so cute .
no wonder huiling , yuying nd
others like him so much laas .
i dreamt of him last night .
he is as handsome as his real person .
i wonder if mye dream will come true o1
day but .. impossible mission .
alot of people say dhat we look alike .
the eyes , the nose , both got baby face .
some say we are compatible but ..
i think is i force dhem to say dhat de ba .
i want to thanks pm dave & tanya for
teaching us dhat giving is more important
dhen taking . i will always remember wha dhey
say . it will the most precious lession i learn in
my life .

2007-07-17T21:41:00.000-07:00

nowadaes th tu type . so neber update lez . so siianz .
now in sku . hahaz . using sku de computer .
miss hiim lots laas . but ii tink he stiue nord interested in mie .
hahaz . mae be too plump nd short lez .
must grow taller . teller . nd taller .
teacher is back . better nord ryte so much .

2007-07-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

hahaz . todae so fun .
we saw beri BIG COCKROACH laas .
heather , sillah , wenxin , felix , mie nd CATHLYN TONG
scream nd shout llyke hell laas .
dha stupid COCKROACH scratch heather's hand nd sillah's face laas .
dhunnoe tmr hu plae wid dha COCKROACH .
mae be mie or mae be sillah laas .
hope cels will come tu sku nd watch show laas .
hahaz . she will sure laugh lluke siao .

2007-06-29T08:49:00.000-07:00

haiis . so siianz . tmr stiue nid tu go dha tuition .
neber do homework aso nid tu go .
dhunnoe for whad laas . haiis .
tmr so tired . gord tuition . dhen go for band .
haiis . after dhat go myte mye marmiie , uncle nd cui li jie jie .
llong tyme neber see her lez . so forget her face .
hahaz . heng . mye marmiie stiue can recognize her laas .
she sae mye jie nd ii neber change . hahaz .
sit dha bus come home . ii tink dha bus driver dhunnoe hw tu drive .
he drive untiue ii feel llyke vomiting laas . whad dha hell .
ii drive aso better dhen hiim norx . hahaz . kidding nia .
reach home lez . dhen so tired . haiis . wann bath dhen go slp lez .
haiis . todae so sad . ii neber see him todae .
neber see his kyute kyute nd handsome de face .
neber see his straight straight de uniform nd lots more .
hahaz . he really damn kyute de laas .
especially when he smile or even laugh llyke hell . hahaz .
remember tu tagg before ue go . bye bye .hab fun readin mye blog .

2007-06-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

gord back tu sku lez . 3rd dae in sku .
hahaz . it is so siianz . study study nd STUDY llyke siao norx .
hahaz . tmr is celestene nd benjamin de 9 anni lez .
also mine nd ah pui . hahaz . but fake de . hahaz .
ii saw HIIM yesterdae nd todae . he is damn KYUTE laas . hahaz .
see HIIM , dha shirt alwaes tuck out de . hahaz .
but everytime ii see him is secretly de . hahaz .
coz ii scared paiseh . hahaz .
hab tuition . wanted tu do mye homework but dhunnoe how tu do .
so tmr ask friend teach . hahaz . dhunnoe whether dhey knoe anord .
hahaz . so siianz . dhunnoe mdm leow view mye blog lez maa ?
hope she tagg mie before she go .

2007-06-22T10:48:00.000-07:00

haiis . todae so siianz .
hab tuition nd did two compre .
so siianz laas . haiis .
after tuition go band ad city hall .
laugh untiue llyke siao laas .
dhen go fynd mye marmiie at paya lebar .
bought food fer her tu eat .
dhen she gave mye jie half coz she full .
dhen come home .
take dha stupid bus dhen feel llyke vomiting laas .
stupid bus driver dhunne how tu drive .
ii drive aso better dhen hiim laas . hahaz.
just kidding nia . hahaz .
ii drive dha car sure "buang" de . hahaz .
dhen everyone in dha bus injured .
or worst . DIE . choy . touch wood .

2007-06-21T03:49:00.000-07:00

hellos . iim back .
so fun . ii llove it .
plae all dha games except monorail nd space shot .
wanted tu plae space shot de . but no one pei mie .
ad dhat place ii met vanessa , shenna , berfont , small kid nd pui kia .
we plae bumber car together . bang lai bang qu . beri fun .
when mye cousins nd ii plae spinners , we kick each others chair .
nd we warn dha young boii nd gurl nord tu sit in front ofb us .
but dhey dhun listen . so dhey aso kena from us .
dhen we came down . dha farking mother . scold us .
dhen complaint tu dha security guard dhen we go polis office settle laas .
fark dha mother . she sae we no discipline . ii think she dhen no discipline .
she so rude laas .
kick mye cousins hand dhen stiue scold us .
feel llyke slapping her face nd beat her llyke siao .
think ofb dhis ii angrii laas .

2007-06-16T02:40:00.000-07:00

countdown --> a few hours more .
yay ! going genting lez .
will miss ue guys de .
especially hiim .

2007-06-11T05:23:00.000-07:00

ii saw SIMON nd EN JIE GOR at batok .
dhey re so KYUTE .
ii miiss DHEM real lots .
but injured by DHEM . hahaz . jkjk .
ii scared ofb BALL .
haiis . so siianz .
nth tu post sia .

我喜欢你!

2007-06-07T09:51:00.000-07:00

空气地20％是氧气
森林的50％是树林
地球的70％是海洋
爱情的90％是牺牲
我的100％是你！

跟每天呼吸的次数一样 ~ 想你
在每次眨眼的那一瞬间 ~ 想你
跟每天吃饭的饭粒一样多 ~ 想你
像每天喝水一样多 ~ 想你
现在，你知道我有多喜欢你了吧？
就像对你的思念，我的爱深沉又遥远，
对你的爱，让我感到无比的幸福 ~

听说人如果死了，就会变成天上的星星…
当你难过… 孤独的时候，
是否能看看窗外？
有没有一颗默默注视你的星星，
悬挂在天际…
这一瞬间… 你可以想像一下吗？
那颗星星…应该就是我…
在一望无际的无人岛…
只要有你在，
我什么都不需要了！
ii love ue!

深夜里，突然收到一首~~mp3~~歌
其实我早就下载了这首~~mp3~~歌…
但因为是你寄给我的，所以更觉得珍惜…
这首~~mp3~~歌真的好好听…　，
一直听…　，一千遍…　，一万遍也不厌倦…

一直注视着荧幕，
好像可以看透一样…
同一个时间，望着同一个地点，
过了一段时间，
听说就能见到彼此，
真是令人无法相信…
不管怎样，
对我而言，
只有你，
才是我心中的最爱…
你前世一定是在夜空中最闪耀的星星…

我，我是babygurl,
不是百分之百的善良，
偶尔也会骂骂人和调皮捣蛋。

我，我就是babygurl,
千万别以为我很单纯！
我懂得可多了，
也常常偷看电视。

我，我就是babygurl,
我可不是奉公守法的好公民，
有时候会闯红绿灯，
偶尔也会乱丢垃圾。

我一点都不觉得难过，
因为我的心，
已经被你带走了…
我喜欢你！

2007-06-04T12:33:00.000-07:00

aiyo! ah pui so fcking lazy. she dun wan to post! lols. anyway i'm joeyC here. :D haha, no la. her mummy at home so she cannot to post. cant let her mum see what she wana post hur. she'll be posting again tonight! stay tune! (:

2007-06-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

hey ! iim back !
sorry worx . neber post ferr so many daes .
joeyc . nord ii lazy horx . hahaz .
mye marmiie at home so donte wanna post any thing .
stiue hab 7 compre , 4 reader's digest nd 6 maths paper tu do .
fark dhat tuitor laas . so many home work . wann die lez .
all must past up on thursdae laas .
better go do mye homework lez . post again tmr .
bye bye . rmb tu tagg before ue go .

2007-06-02T01:37:00.000-07:00

yesterdae neber post coz donte hab tiing tu write .
stiue hab so many homework tu do.
haiis. sure cannort finish de laas .
siianz . really fan bout homework lez .
donte feel llyke doin but cannord laas .
ii stiue hab 6 more compre , 3 reader's digest nd 6 maths paper .
must pass up on fridae de .
sure die lez laas .
sure kena confine 1 month de .
fark dhat tutor laas . ii hate her .
she sux .

2007-05-31T20:52:00.000-07:00

yesterdae
my marmiie at home
so ii didnt post anything
ii tried mye best tu jian fei lez .
stop saying dhat iim fat .
iim controlling myeself
nord tu eat so much
cried becoz ii tried mye best tu go on diet
but nobody sees dha point.
at least in three daes
ii manage tu slim down by 3 kg .
haiis . ii hab tu continue tu eat less .
got tu go fer mye farking tuition lez .

2007-05-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

每个女孩都是天使
当她落下第一眼泪时
上帝就收回他的翅膀
所以
男孩都应该知道
当你面前的女孩
为你落下一滴泪时
她已经为你放弃整个天堂

ii had given up dha heaven ferr ue lez.

Azuzephre Slide

2007-05-30T05:57:00.000-07:00

hahaz . todae is so fun . saw hai yuan .
he plae wid mie . hahaz .
so tired . plae wid yue chao untiue whole body sweat .
reach home dhen bath lez .
smells so nice worx . hahaz .
siianz view lez mye blogg must tagg mie horx .

2007-05-30T05:47:00.000-07:00

haiis . so sorry . ii ferget tu post yesterdae .
now post fer yesterdae de . so siianz .
nag nag nag nag . all she do is tu nag .
ii HATE all dha nagging man !!
show ue a picture ofb myeself .
<de .
hahaz . ~~nord~~ being force tu take photo .